these are my memories; precious memories.

Friday, September 09, 2005
4:23 PM
why?*

yes, today i shall address the issue of why people keep spelling my name wrongly!

*everyone claps*

*slaps self* okay, lame. but still.

i remember waybackwhen i was still in primary school. (yeah, everything started from there). wah, so many mutations to my name sia.

nathasha, natasha, na dao sha, na dou sa, etcetc, all the lame nicknames a young child could every imagine. gah. okay. so fine.

secondary school. you'd think these people were slightly more intelligent. guess what. i was wrong.

nathasha, natasha, nathasa. natalie, even. i remember this really irritating substitute math teacher i had in secondary 2 who, despite my constant reminders that my name was nathasha, kept calling me natalie, until i had no heart to correct the guy. >_< then, the shortening of my name. nat, nut, nutty. etc etc. the list goes on.

and when i come to jc lei..

wah. i felt like i was re-living my primary school days lei.

kiong wee actually called me by one of the nicknames those irritating boys back in primary school used to call me. *$%#&@, one more time and i'd show him the meaning of "na dao sha"(literally, take knife and kill).

ne~ *whines* *slaps self*

haha, and then, my screen names. i've had too many to count. my first was morphobia~ such a dear name. xD which gradually got shortened into morphy, and morph. =x then there was janiria shadowsong, dalwen snowpaw, jacinthia, sicant, silver(erika silverstar! *huggles*), eaglefeather, and the most recent, sayuki.

okay. fine. woanrong pointed out to me that i "left out an 'i'". well, it wasn't intentional, the name popped into my head, and i didn't know it was close to "saiyuji", or "journey to the west". methinks me should have kept that japanese name my friend gave me waybackwhen. i can't even remember it. sigh.

yep. so now, people call me sayuji, saiyuki. i've even had phelios call me saiyuji. o_O

please stop mutating my name! *runs to corner and cries*

okay. on a different note, i wanna thank vera and derrick for their support.. *chuckles* especially vera. i wouldn't be who i am today if it weren't for you.

writing.. you influenced me.(although i didn't catch on to the whole "death" thing.. xD)
cosplaying.. you influenced me too. by bringing me to cosfest 05.

basically, you've been a huge influence on my life, so don't be suprised if i take up GL next. it'll be your fault. xD

i'm thankful that throughout all these years, our friendship has held strong.. and i believe it will remain strong throughout the rest of our lives. ^_^

haha, recesses. i miss those times. four of us from different classes, meeting every single recess. people didn't believe me when i told them xD I MISS MY SECONDARY SCHOOL DAYS!

i miss bugging the mep teachers through the window =)
i miss acting as the center divider in the middle of a busy road(!!). hehee.
i miss recesses. i miss after-school gatherings.
i miss shopping. with you, mich and hfang. xD

i miss them all. =(

but! we'll get together again one day right? hehee. can't wait.

sigh.

maybe one day, everything will be okay, but till then i'll be wrapped in my fears, drowning in my tears..

i just need you.

i hope everything will turn out fine. it's a big risk i'm taking, gambling with our friendship in hopes of something more..

but i guess you'll never know if you don't try.. and.. well..

i can't find the words to say what i want to say. ._. sigh.

the memories
so dear