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Friday, September 23, 2005
8:15 PM haix*
yes.
i know i haven't been blogging.
and i'm very sorry i've been so depressed these few days. things happening around me have just been making things worse and worse for me. i feel like crumbling.. it's so hard to keep up that cheerful front, you know? it's like, i walk into school these days and i'm like, gee, i have to pretend to be happy/not hurt/not depressed again.. it's so hard.. i don't know how long more i can keep it up.. but.. i don't want to worry the people around me.. that's why i still keep on smiling even though deep inside of me, i really want to cry.. even though i may seem not to care, it's cutting me deep.. very deep..
wo de nao hai li, yi zhi you ni de hui yi, jiao wo bu xiang qi ni, shi bu ke neng de shi qing.. ni ke yi bu ai wo, ke shi ni neng rang wo ai ni ma?
i know it's useless clinging on.. but something in me doesn't want to let go.. i don't know.. i know i should just let it pass.. try to forget.. try to be the truly happy person i once was..
i don't know anymore..
i really feel like crying.. but somehow the tears won't come.. and not for the first time too.. sigh.
okay, what's been going on in my life other than the really sad stuff(which i will make great effort to forget)?
monday - nothing. except that.
tuesday - went to meet peter! finally that guy got a day off from work! haha..
met him at 3, at city hall. i'm supposed to be on a diet and he fed me a waffle =x oh well. =) reminds me of him. =( sigh. okay forget that. anyway.. he's getting married this coming june! congratulations to peter and nicole!
hehee..
sigh..
did that sound very fake?
it felt fake to me.
wednesday - didn't do much. it was chinese paper day. went home after that. lalala.
thursday - did what i usually do. slept in the band room. then there was a commotion.. xD
a post i made at sgcafe..
went to sleep about 9.30.. at 11.30, someone opened the band room door.. and asked: "anyone in here?" i heard, sat up and said: "yeah?" the guy started screaming: "ahhhhhh~~~ GHOST!!!!" =x the door closed.. soon someone else came to open it again. "hello?" me(still abit sleepy) "yeah? who's that?" "chong hui's friends. he said we could come. can we come in?" "oh. yeah. sure."
then they recognised me from the other time they came in when i was sleeping. hahahahaha
then chong hui came in and was like, "why you scream into my ear about ghost?" apparently he was on the phone with one of the guys when they screamed about me being a 'ghost'.. lol.
we plotted ways to kill ms yap.
she was saying how she wanted to jump down from the second story window when someone answered her: "immoral" to a question she asked. xD
i was kinda blur, so i said: "go up one more floor la.." whereas shafiq said: "go ahead. jump."
i'm freaking pissed.
posted this in the sgcafe forum again.. no prizes for guessing who the jerk in question is.
because this chem teacher wanted to talk to us regarding our horrible remedial attendance.. then she asked us to write out 'reflections'.. how we are gonna revise, our aims, etc.. then that guy said he had pw meeting, so he talk to the teacher first because she want to talk to us individually. and guess what. he spent 45mins arguing with the teacher. he doesn't understand if you want someone to shut up, just make them happy, say yes or something?? and then he left the classroom when he was done. five minutes later he came back. what happen to the meeting sia.
and the teacher only spoke to me for about 10 seconds because i said i already started revision la. what the hell. make me stay back listen to him argue with the teacher only to speak to the teacher for 10 sec. gah. so pissed off la..
and yes i'm still very mad at him.
okay nevermind.
today.. well.
had a talk of sorts with jocelyn. found out erm stuff. xD
chong hui wanted to ask me something just, but he decided against it. gee. wonder what he wanted to ask boy. xD
shall let off some steam at the sgcafe forum.
pissed. pissed. pissed.
and very very sad.
the memories
so dear
im waiting for the day.
nat` ;
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morphobia@hotmail.com ;
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for you to tell me.
#1tuba
#2bball
#3soccer
#4band
#5piano
that you love me too.
#1new wallet
#2new phone[samsung sgh-e730/e720c]
#3good grades for promos
#4lose weight
#5him[found him]
escape from reality
dec 05 - eoy @ expo - rhode from dgray man - pending
dec 05 - photoshoot - rhode from dgray man
dec 05 - videoshoot - sara(vampires anonymous)
mar 06 - photoshoot - cocowet from erementer gerad
dec 06 - eoy @ ???? - cocowet from erementer gerad