these are my memories; precious memories.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005
11:27 AM
national day*

you know something? i'm freaking exhausted.

yesterday was the jc2s' last performance with us.

we all woke up at unearthly hours of the morning, we all reached school half-asleep, we all grumbled and whined and basically were in an overall bad mood.

we took out our instruments, blasted for a bit, woke up and cheered up.

we sat, we waited, and were overall patient with the stage crew. so i say.

we played.

again, that feeling.. can't be described by words.

after which we got chased to the band room, where we camped about an hour, took lots of crappy photos and basically went wild. then we went back to the hall, went onstage and went even wilder. i remember clement being pushed to the ground with a loud thud behind me and yogendran, and someone trying to take his shoes off. i vaguely remember all the camera lenses aimed in so many different directions at once. i faintly recall the noise, the thuds on the floor, the worrying about the stage collasping, the bright flashes of light and all that dancing and screaming. i remember the laughter, those faces of pure joy and happiness, that warmth because i was surrounded by friends - friends i never cherished, until it was too late. friends who were always there, one way or another. no, not just friends - loved ones. i remember the laughter.

and through it all, he was there, next to me, but he didn't say anything.

not one word. i guess we were just too caught up in the moment to notice.

i listened to them talk, over lunch at the principal's expense. i only had a cup of lemon tea(or that's what they called it, anyway. icky stuff). they seemed so happy - i didn't want it to end. if only i could stop time..

left with kian hong, kiong wee, sujin, julian, erwin, clement, chong hui, kenneth and woanrong to paya lebar for lan.. four hours of dota, nonstop.. the last time i would play lan with them? i hope not.. i really won't wish for it to be so..

i wanted to watch a movie with them after that, but higher authority demanded i return home.. *chuckles*

this morning, wanted to leave a few words on the band forum.. but i cried after i read this..

dear everyone,
thank you very very much...for the past 1 1/2 years... to all my committee members, thanks for helping the band and of cos ourselves, to improve to wad we are today. learnt alot from u all during the period of the 04 batch... ups and downs... all tasted before. Thinking back, it has been a wonderful time... from the day i was appointed as the vp, where hardly a quarter of the band heard of my name... to today, where all of us played together as one for the very last time. Singapore Rhapsody II... i will always remember it. remember how we learn from each other, supporting each other? 6th ASBC, where we were trashed by other asian band? when i first scolded the whole band? (still dare to sae huh) however, i still remember the good times... clement eating dunno how many cups of noodles inseide the hotel room, dr lee playinf with the water at the hotel's pool, "pretty girls" waving at mark... well, sweet isn't it? remember "hai ou"?

building up a band is not an easy task...without daniel, eileen, cloe, jing zhong, pei ru, sazali, aidah, sujin, suvenna, yi xin, yu ngai, mazlina, jun wei and kiong wee, the band would not have been wad it is today... or for the very least, in our batch. I remember saying, a good band is made up of 2 attributes-- system and spirit. without these two, the band will never be a good band. the committee had lived up to this attributes... giving their everything to the band... i'm proud of them... we learnt along the way... and we get better each time. thank you very much.

lastly, to the future committee: never live in past glory... the future is yours to make...(sounds like this yr's ndp theme hor?) there are things u need to improve on...or should i say, lots of things to improve on. it's all yours now... make use of the time in the band... learn through the process... dun be afraid to get hated by people (of cos lots of ppl hate me!!!), cos ur main goal is to guide the whole band. cannot say too much la... u need to add on to the history book... not us..

lastly, "a leader brings people where they want to go... but a great leader brings people where they not necessary want to go, but ought to be..."

best regards,
julian

to all the tpjc jc2 band members.. thank you for colouring my band like with so many shades.. all the sad times, the blues.. the yellows and oranges that represent our happiness, joy, the fun and laughter.. the reds of anger when things weren't going too well, and the passion that each of us shares for the band.. all these colours blend with each other and form other unique colours.. a testimony of my emotions during this past eight months..

now.. for individual people..

julian.. for all the problems you've given me.. for always being late, oversleeping half the time, giving attitude, losing the band room keys, and all our disagreements.. i really want to thank you.. because you're the life of the section.. wouldn't know what the section would be like without you. more boring, perhaps.. even though i said, "finally! no more having to look at julian's face and put up with his attitude!", i'm still going to miss you terribly.. as a committee member i'll do my best to make you and the rest of the committee proud..

kwang liang.. how else could i have improved without your constant support and guidence? you're always trying to make us laugh, always keeping the spirits high. you're the most practical of us all, the one who tries to keep everyone happy, the one who makes the decisions. thank you for always being there..

terrence.. forever late.. lazy pig.. *pokes* i'll miss the times when i take the bus with you after band practices.. the conversations about nothing and everything during band.. the songs that you love to play/sing.. haha.. i'll miss the good times.. really..

michelle.. dearest ahma.. thanks for always being there for me.. when i'm upset or have problems i know i can always turn to you for advice and support.. thank you so much.. stay sweet always okay, and remember that i love you more than jason..

kiong wee.. ever my source of inspiration and support.. you were there for me when i was down.. helping me in your own sublte way. i really really look up to you, and hopefully i can be like you.. an inspiration to other people.. thank you for everything.. your lame jokes and your talks.. especially during the syf period..

kenneth.. if i have to thank you for anything, thank you for being an idiot lol. your less-than-intentional blurness always makes me laugh.. thank you.

there are so many other things i want to say, to so many other people.. my gratitude to you all can never truely be expressed fully in words.. there's just too much to say and too little time..

before i start tearing all over my keyboard, i bid you a plesent day, and an enjoyable national day.

[[* i love the tpjc band.. now and forever..

if we hold on together, i know our dreams will never die.

lastly, to all the jc2s.. good luck for you a levels!

the memories
so dear