these are my memories; precious memories.

Sunday, July 03, 2005
3:14 PM
random.*

czardas is so nice~! haha.. listening to it being played on a tuba.. it's really really nice.. and so professional! haha i can't imagine myself playing it at that speed.. it's scary. it's insane! haha..

i like my wolf picture~~! ^_^
i miss janiria, and sicant, and silver. haha.
and not forgetting baby redfarl.. =)

do i sound strange? haha!

30 Things Guys Should Know About Girls
Written by a guy. After years of experience.

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house... they run around in their underwear just like we do..

2. Don't cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud.

3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your butt at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.

4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.

6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.

8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.

8.5. If you DO sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.

9. Don't ever do anything wrong. girls remember things for life and anything you did wrong will be used against you in the future.

10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales. (tee hee.)

11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy.

11.5. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!

12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a dinner by him, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the crap out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.

17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms... that's just freaky.

20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like crap, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.

22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.

24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.

26. Memorize their birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.

27. Don't marinade the cologne.

28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful.

29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.

30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think.

hahaha.

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i'm not after the material things in life.. and you should know me better than that..

i'm tired of talking to all these people who don't know him personally, because if they knew him, they wouldn't be saying those things about him.. that's one of the reasons why i turned to chelsea.. but the response seems to be somewhat the same.. i don't get it.

am i the only one who has seen you that way..?

sigh.

yeah, i know last year was a bitch.. but then again.. we always look back on the past and say, "yeah, it was a bitch, wasn't it?" we always deny and delude ourselves about stuff but secretly we know the truth and accept it.. the outside is always different from the inside.. the me beneath the facade.. yes? no? who knows..

oh well. i know we're going to have to talk about it soon, but for now i'm trying to put off thinking about it.. but the more i try not to think about it, the more it gets stuck in my head.. basically i'm afraid to talk about it.. i'm scared of the outcome.. hell, i'm even more frightened of the process.. everything that has led up to this.. every word that we have ever said to each other..

of course, i hope it will go well..
because i don't want to lose this friendship.

you know, that kind of friendship that two people share, where you can share everything with each other(and i mean everything), no secrets.. that kind.. i don't want to lose it, it means too much to me. sigh~~..

i'm reluctant to lay it all down.. to risk it for the sake of 12152205. bleagh.

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american graffiti eleven and japanese graffiti seven! anyone else has recordings of the other japanese/american graffitis? send them to me here! yay! haha.

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okay, nat shall not be sad anymore. nat shall be a happy girl.

well, i'm not sad, actually. i'm just not happy. hmm, a strange way of looking at things, eh? haha. okay.

but what else is there to do on a sunday afternoon other than be bored and think about *that*.. sigh..

i wish you'd call me.. i'm waiting for your call.. because i'm afraid to call you.. and we do need to talk about this.. sigh.. i wish someone understood..

the memories
so dear