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and yet
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Sunday, July 31, 2005
3:08 PM today.*
well, let's see.
morning, went through the same routine.. woke up, wash up, breakfast, church, lunch, home. only today had additional noise(my dad shouting at my bro.. sighs)..
listening to second suite and czardas while talking to guanyu. i'm so bored.. wanted to go cut my hair today, and give the guys a shock on monday when they see me(lol!), but dear vera's sick today, so she can't take me out. oh darn. haha.
remember how i said i'd learnt how to tie my tie? well, i forgot how to already! =x haha.. well. guess i'll have to re-learn or something. at the moment, jessica's at compasspoint helping me scout for green ties. she says there should be ties in the colour i want over there. i'd go with her but she's with a friend. don't want to interrupt, you know? haha.
well.. another day of nothing-ness.. sigh.
i should be happy, right? but why?
nothing noteworthy has happened. nothing noteworthy will happen in the near future, i guess.
he's so busy he's not going for festival of praise. i can only hope he's taking good care of himself.. our conversations, if you can even call them that, have become very strained. i don't even know how to address him anymore. we have short message conversations(five messages or less).. and he sounds so distant all the time. so many possibilities.. so many 'could be that's.. they just keep running in my head, around and around, in circles.. getting me all confused. oh well..
life throws us a lot of crap.. guess we all have to deal with it the best we know how.. and i guess that that's just his way of dealing with it..
the memories
so dear
Saturday, July 30, 2005
1:42 PM band, band, and more band.*
i am bored out of my dear little mind.
i don't know about you, but already i don't like where this is going.
friday, hand fmaths tutorials and lectures, then chinese, then went for band. we played better than wednesday.. i guess sometimes it takes a bit of scoldings to get us to put in that little bit more effort.. but concert is only six days away.. we should stop slacking! *slaps self* anyway. went home alone(as usual, nothing new there). still trying to find the green ties. farhan said he'd help me keep a look out.
today, went for band.. yes, it's saturday and here i am going for band early in the morning.. messaging woanrong all the way.. had combined sectionals with brasses and percussion, under kiong wee.. thought that today i could take my new jc1 section, but grace had other plans for us.. lucky i never go and combine with the woodwinds? haha. well, nice to know we're improving, at any rate. ended around 12.30, then waited for the rain to stop.. it didn't, so we asked the sch attendant to open the side gate and let us out.. and she did. was complaining to woanrong that i wanted to go out but no one to go out with.. so she said that she thought the guys were going lan.. why never call me~~~.. dots.. okay.. nevermind.. sometimes i'm also lazy to care about them.. and that person is there, so i don't want to go anyway. sigh. so here i am, at home, with no lunch. yayness.
oh, i can play three scales on the bassoon! ^_^ and i can play some other random stuff too. haha.
i like bassoon and i love tuba. =D
i'm very tired. i wonder if he's going for the festival of praise. i wanna go, with woanrong, and we're probably dragging kiong wee along. i hope he's going, i so much wanna see him again. =P haha.. i guess that's why he's not free to some watch the tpjc band concert? haha.. must be it..
all these precious moments with you by my side
i don't know how i found you i'm thankful that i have that i have a love so true to hold to keep to share
in my heart i can no long hold inside all of the love i used to hide i'd always be with you until the very end
in this world there is no place i'd rather be you are my life my soul my girl boy and through it all i know you'll come to see that you're the one till the end
you'll always be till the end
okay.. i wanna go forage around for food to eat.. *eyes pizza in freezer* ^_^
the memories
so dear
Thursday, July 28, 2005
6:26 PM week~*
okay. let's see..
past few days have been littered with eventful happenings, and i shall relate them as i remember them, yes? haha.
wednesday, had the most awful band practice ever.. i think it was worse that first three months.. dr lee actually went through the pieces only once then walked out on us.. as usual, the committee members went after him to try and placate him.. didn't work this time, apparently.. it's because no one watched dr lee when he was conducting, then he got upset with us.. concert is only 8 days away and we still can't play the pieces smoothly.. not even jap graf 4, which is supposed to be a fun piece.. i think only my section was prepared to play that piece la.. sigh sigh.
had committee meeting after band, regarding concert and stuff. went home around 8+, my mum thought i had been off playing soccer again. ._. so misunderstood. complained to ika part of the night, then worked on posters for the band concert.
this morning, came to school early for a short 'committee meeting'.. decided to use mine and kaixin's posters, because they're black and white and easy to photocopy.. band room table was so noisy this morning because of us! tried to study a bit of organic chem, trying to remember what terrence taught me inbetween parts during practice on wed. then went for lessons.. it was okay la. during chem, jian shun walked out on the chem teacher. i mean, just packed his bag and left. just because he didn't prepare some question to be presented on the board, he was like, "it's all my fault." and just left. i think the chem teacher's gonna tell ms yap. he didn't even show up for gp later. he was probably hiding himself in some corner crying. it's like, that's all he knows how to do la. i know it's mean, but seriously, he should get a life.
couldn't go for band today.. sad.
mag just called me and asked if it was okay that they changed the title on my poster. i wrote "tpjc concert band proudly presents". the teachers want it changed to "tpjc band and chinese orchestra present". hello! it's band concert? why must put co in the title also? i put them as guest players, they should be happy already okay. i didn't even want to put them down la. cecegbc. what the hell la.. if people know that the co is going to play, i don't think they want to attend our concert liao.. all the songs that they are playing, my brother is also playing in coral sec co.. what kind of standard man.. sheesh..
okay.. shall not be pissed by that.. since mag asked so nicely, i shall redo the posters(grr).
sigh.. feeling a little stressed. was kicking at the railings and stuff in school while me, ika and charis waited for yogi to finish his free milo from the library, which is open till 9pm these days. don't they have other things to do other than mug?? gee. they were a little concerned because i really wanted to break something or kill someone. gah.
oh, yes. tuesday, vanessa used my phone to sms him(because if i took it upon myself to sms him, the message would never get sent), but i didn't get a reply till late. and, as vanessa pointed out on wednesday morning when i showed it to her, it wasn't really the response i was expecting. it's true, i felt slightly(okay, more than slightly) disappointed. i don't know. i mean. yeah. okay. erm. asked him if he wanted to come for the band concert but he said that he already had something on that day, and why didn't i ask him earlier, then he would love to come. oh well. but after that, he stopped responding to my messages, and i can only wonder why. perhaps he's just busy. well.. i don't know. as in. i get really confused sometimes, and this is one of those times.
circled number 4 under 'things that have changed slightly' on my worksheet on the application question for the marriage passages. it's got a significance for me.
not many people accept that still, right?
it doesn't pay to be different, after all. in the end you'd still be forced into the same mould as everyone else.
anyway. i think i have ranted quite enough. shall rant some more on saturday if i can, and if you want to read. may be going to get yataka(sp? it's a japanese traditional summer outfit, with obi and everything) on saturday, and i need to find the lime green ties my section needs. anyone know where to get them? gee.
maybe i should call kwang han to ask where he bought the ties.
and cuiyin and edmund, while i'm at it.
oh, and chong hui has a blog. how suprising.
no, maz, chong hui was not flirting with me. thanks. ._.
the memories
so dear
Sunday, July 24, 2005
5:58 PM -*
i'm sorry, but my answer is no.
it has always been, and always will be. i'm really, really sorry. i just had to say this out.. if you know what i mean. it's been so long. i know you've kept trying. i'm sorry it turned out the way it did. it's just.. it's been really hard. i don't know what to say.
i'm sorry. just leave me to cry now. please. don't come back into my life. it hurts too much.
the memories
so dear
1:49 PM weekend~*
okay la. i know this is getting very boring. seriously. i'm bored of it too.
friday, met up with the band members in the morning as usual. michelle ngiam was letting yeekiat and i listen to the russell peters jokes on her phone. after a while yee kiat took the phone and placed it under his ear, and i couldn't hear a thing.
sometimes i doubt my seniors' maturity. seriously.
had fmaths, fmaths lec, chinese.. weixiang got me to tell the teacher that he was sick(he just wanted to skip lessons la..), and when i did, the teacher believed me.. maybe it's because i'm the only girl in the chinese class so she trusts me more? hmm. haha. well. jaren says he's going to do that next time too. haha!
went to the band room immediately after lessons.. went for lunch with yogi at macs, then went to j201 for fmaths remedial on trigonometry. i'm okay at it, i guess. then went for band around four+. end of band, daniel and julian and maz talked to us all.. yesh it's very disappointing that everyone's not taking this seriously.. oh well..
went to play soccer after band with mark, jun wei, kiong wee, chong hui, azfar and shiyong.. was feeling kinda pissed so i didn't hold back, even tackled the guys and made a few passes instead of just intimidating the guys by just being there.. lol.. managed to successfully tackle mark.. haha. kiong wee said i was fierce, but who cares? needed to get it out somehow.
realise i've been staring into space quite often these days.. i'm not thinking of anything in particular. in fact, i don't even know what i'm thinking about when i start to stone. i just.. stone. i don't know.
saturday, went to school for sectionals because kwang liang asked me to come.. so i did.. only the percussion section was there when i reached. practiced half an hour in the storeroom, jocelyn and farhan came. then when i went outside, i was suprised that the whole horn section was here already. went to practice with kwang liang in lt1. mag came, then woanrong, and we went through all our stuff before being evicted from the lt by some crap gp teacher who was holding some crap interschool competition. did i mention it was crap?
learnt how to play the bassoon, a little, then left school with woanrong. we walked to woanrong's place where i took a bus to simei, then train to city hall to meet vera and derrick.
went for lunch at pastamania at suntec, then ran into desmond(?), who's from tpjc and is derrick's secondary school classmate(!!) haha. he was with his girlfriend, michelle. yogi said i was a very extra spotlight. ._. haha. went to carrfour to try and find ties, but couldn't get any in the shade we wanted. then me, vera and derrick went off to orchard, hereen. vera says i must change my image, and she's going to drag me to get my hair cut one of these days.
i must protect my hair.
after a very long walk, we decided to go home: me to my home, and vera to derrick's. haha.
yogi messaged me at night, complaining that his computer had screwed up just as he was putting the finishing touches on his wind band arrangement of 'sakura'. no, i don't think it's that 'sakura', guanyu. ._. haha!
this morning, went to church. got home a while ago, so here i am.
guanyu found pictures of lookit and lianwei getting pillared. see how bored she is? as such i shall now publish this post for her viewing pleasure~.. see how nice i am.
the memories
so dear
Thursday, July 21, 2005
6:19 PM erm*
okay. before you scold me for not blogging, i have a perfectly good reason: dsa.
monday.. had band. julian was pretty much being a idiot, deciding he would be a loner and practice in the next classroom all by himself. so he has his issues. whatever. dsa was.. okay? school ended early because we had listening exam(chinese) and we all forgot band started at 4.30 and gathered around outside the band room immediately after the paper around 3.30. gee.. haha. was okay la. then band, nothing much, lalala.
tuesday, in the morning, clement brought his gameboy and pokemon cartridge. yeekiat was playing! and sometimes, i really question my seniors' maturity.. haha.. i asked them if they were really 18 years old and kiong wee told me, "i'm not 18, i'm 19 lor.." dots.. yeekiat was really really into the game! i was like, "who are you and what have you done to yeekiat?!?!?!"
almost died on the pe track. seriously. after one month plus of not running, my teacher asks us to do 2.4km run. and i really almost died. ._. then i had spa for physics! how was i supposed to think with that headache?! it was 'do or die'. or rather, 'don't do, die.. do, also die'. sighs..
went to do the dsa thing again.. guanyu came.. played for a while, scared the hell out of those trumpeters who were auditioning. haha! she even said loudly, "but i'm not auditioning!" but i think the gal was still scared.. haha. oh, woanrong's veryveryvery pro bassoonist friend came. it's hard to believe he only has two years of experience, he played the dance of yao like a, well, pro! haha!
when chong hui came, guanyu was like, " i wanna play like a beginner and scare him!" so kian hong told chong hui, "here's guanyu, the pro tkgs trumpeter.." and guanyu's notes came out "bleaghbleaghbleagh~~~~" chong hui's face changed la! haha! it was so funny.. heh.
went for dinner with guanyu, and kian hong came soon after. went home, slept at 6+ and woke up 6+ the next morning. 12 hours. feel like a pig.
wednesday.. it was okay la. had a lot of laughs. dsa again, dr lee came! haha kinda missed him last week. candice, mel oh, guanyu and another clarinetist came for dsa. dr lee didn't want to audition them, he said he's just going to accept them straight! but i don't think candice wants to come to tpjc.. oh well. nevermind la.
went home with terrence, candice and guanyu bugging me at the bus stop. guanyu was trying to get me to go to the airport with her. and she tried to pour water on me just to see if the uniform was really waterproof! and when she didn't succeed she pointed at terrence and asked, "your friend arh?" then proceeded to try and pour water on terrence!!!! gee. haha.
today was okay. had spe, luckily no one listened to yap pak oi when she said "i think you're allowed to wear your ethnic costume on thursday, racial harmony day.." because s33 listened to one of their classmates, and didn't bring their pe attire and had to do pe in their school uniforms! imagine if we had listened to yap pak oi!! omg.. hahahahahaha!! then pw lecture, which was uber-boring. haha. other lessons were okay. gp sucks.. it's so boring. after school went to eat with yogi, and wait for ika. went to the library after that, and i wrote lots of stuff on the paper on the tables!! haha(poor danial!)
well.. that's all i guess.. been feeling quite tired.. my legs ache, guess that's because of the running. arms ache.
i wanna play crap on my tuba.. these days keep playing 'eyes on me', nice song. ^_^
the memories
so dear
Sunday, July 17, 2005
3:39 PM dsa*
response seems pretty terrible thus far. i've only managed to get guanyu to come, but she's not going to audition for the dsa even if she comes. chong hui keeps bugging me to get the tkgs horn and trumpet players to come.. when i'm not close to the horn players(i forgot their names already), and cheryl's been accepted into tj, there's only so much i can do. well.
secretly wishing that candice and huiping would come to tp, then we'd be a nice happy tkg tuba family(minus fangxian, so sad)! okay, that's such a selfish wish, but only because i miss them so much. sigh.
well, i hope the others(marcus, chong hui and farhan) aren't having as much trouble as i am trying to get people to come. but we do(desperately, might i add) need the horn, trumpet, flute, oboe, trombone, and bassoon players. once the jc2s leave, we'll be left with 2/3 flute(hmm?) 7 clar(think this will be the biggest section.. =x) 0 oboe(there were no oboes to begin with ne) 0 bassoon 5 saxophones 1 french horn 2 trumpets(2 i say!) 3 trombones 3 euphoniums 2 tubas 1 double bass(-_-") 6 percussion bringing the grand total to(drumroll please).. 32 members! how fun.
and after concert, we'll have only five sections: upper woodwind, lower woodwind, upper brass, lower brass, and percussion. whee how fun.
can the jc2s please not leave? *whines*
oh well.
concert will be great. we've gone through all the songs already, and even though we don't sound fantastic, we will when the concert comes.
which reminds me, i have to drop peter a message. he said he'd get back to me monday night but i haven't heard from him at all. gee.
the memories
so dear
Saturday, July 16, 2005
4:38 PM band*
band life is beginning to get hectic - i can feel it. in just one day, i have recieved smses from jocelyn, mag and chong hui all regarding the direct school admission thingy(makes me feel important? nah j/k). haha! well, sent messages out already.. hope it won't be too hard on my phone bill? gee. haha. valerie already told me none of her juniors are coming. sigh.
thinking of using second suite as the audition piece for the dsa for the lower brasses? the march part. haha. but for my own tuba section.. dunno lei? maybe also the march(i dunno how to select piece for string bass~!!!!). haha. well.. see how? hmm, when's my break on monday.. oh, 1.30. kay still got time to go look through the pieces and stuff.
and then trombones use first trombone part or what?? gee.. maybe first la. haha. dots.. shall see how.
woanrong just asked me if i wanted to go to the tokyo kosei concert.. huifen's selling her ticket at $25 because she can't make it.. but i don't think i can get there on time, so suan le.. haha.. nevermind la. i'm sure will have other chances. like last year i heard them once already ma. haha. okay la.
anyway. there's still proposal to work on. ian is supposed to contact me about the national education notice board.. me, him, yan leng and their classmate asha are in charge of it. decorating it, apparently.. but who's going to read it anyway? haha. by tuesday, nonetheless..
oh, and i still have integration assignment to work on. hmm~..
me is so glad me need not go back school today. ^_^ haha! okay. i'm getting crappy.
hope that this time around the turnout will be better for the dsa? last time we had 18 people. maybe this time more than 20? haha! wishful thinking right. haha. oh wells.
the memories
so dear
11:32 AM hmmx..*
dun wanna talk? nevermind lor. dun talk lor. rootbeer float is not nice. it needs real ice cream. *skips off to get some*
friday, reached school early to do integration.. sad to say i don't know much about inverse trigo integration? hmm. haha. oh well. i'm sure i'll get it in time to come(how optimistic -_-").
lessons were okay. the chinese sharing of the china trip was terribly boring though. kept trying not to sleep. genevia was pretty happy where we were seated. haha!!
band was okay. i mean, how else can band be? only 20+ people came.. about 25%? haha. well.. guess many people were going for concert? gee. anyway, played jap graf iv! it's such a great song but suvie skipped the fast part~!!! that's the nicest part of the song~~.. oh well..
halfway though julian was like, eh let's go play soccer.. like.. now~! dots.. vice-president leh.. in fact, both the current and to-be vice pres are in my section.. hahah.. cannot slack liao wor..
after band, went off with kiong wee, kwang liang and sazali.. cloe left her phone in school! so we had kinda planned to ask kenneth to pass it to cloe(he was coming back to school for his tokyo kosei ticket -_-") because cloe was going for the 1pm concert and tokyo kosei was at 3.30pm.. then sazali told me to explain the situation to kenneth but he just walked off even when i was talking to him! i was so pissed off with him.. i don't think he was even listening. fine. i just hope he remembers to return the phone to cloe. damn kenneth. arghhhhhhhh~~!! sighs.. what can i say.. what i was supposed to do is done already.. and i was supposed to pass the phone to kenneth.. whether cloe gets it or not.. that's kenneth's problem.. ._.
oh yeah, my group's proposal for the band chalet has been approved!! rejoice!! haha. actually if it wasn't approved i'd probably kick myself for putting so much time into it *hee*
wanted to go play lan today.. but kiong wee didn't call me.. so i guess no one's going.. anyway a lot of people going for tokyo kosei concert right? gee. with i could go.. but.. $46!!!! haha. ohwell.
the memories
so dear
Thursday, July 14, 2005
5:49 PM hmm.*
let's see now.
wednesday, reached school reasonably early, then prmptly went to sleep outside the band room. woke up at grace's grand arrival. ._. haha. well. had lessons as per normal, blah blah.. ypo is i r r i t a t i n g.. lalala.. haha.
after school had oral exam. kinda glad about it? i didn't screw it up. well, not much, anyway. haha. then went for band. ended at 5, and we could only leave at six because julian and mr lim were holding mag and jocelyn back!! especially julian with all his 'life stories', bleagh.
oh the way, i called marcus pang on the phone, and was talking to him for a bit, then there was one part when i said, "what, i did better than marucs?" and marcus toh turned around and stared at me! haha! it's so confusing having so many people with the same name in your phone book. i have: 3 amandas 2 andrews 2 benjamins 2 daniels(okay, one is spelt danial, but it's hard to tell the diff you know.) 2 graces 2 marcus' 2 michelles(actually it's three, but i don't make it a habit to save michelle j. tan's number haha) 2 sarahs 2 terrences(one terence and one terrence =x) 2 vanessas and 2 weilins(one weiling and one weilin). haha. well.
haha. me, ika, yogi, charis and mag went to like five different places trying to get dinner, but they were all so crowded! in the end, i got a sandwich from seven-eleven. i thought i had bought the chicken ham and cheese, but when i took it out of the plastic bag, the cover read, tuna! gee! haha. we had to run to get there on time! and on the way, michelle n.(she asked me to put that because she got confused between her and michelle tan haha) had taken to the stairs.. she's run down/up the stairs, then lean against the wall and say, "what took you so long?" haha!
made it just in time! phew.. haha.. the band was really really really good, but for me it was a struggle just to keep my eyes open.. =x haha.. saw nat! and met luke. okay, i'm not going to say anything about him! haha. well. then we went home. at the mrt station, everyone managed to squeeze onto the mrt train except mag, amanda tan and charis! then i had to get off to accompany them. and also because they were like "NAT!" and making wild hand gestures for me to get off the train. ._. haha. well, we just got on the next train and went home.
tired~~~~~..
this morning, woke up, slept through my alarm again, but what the heck right? haha. then came to school early. didn't go for spe because there was investiture today. i must be thankful for investiture, you know, because of investiture, i didn't have pw! yes!!!! haha. okay. anyway,
congrats alvin! 20th student council! =)
then had physics lecture. it was a big struggle to keep my eyes open.. i fell asleep. oh dear.. genevia kept waking me up because elenor chia was walking around the audi. sighs. so tired.
had chem spa.. looked at the question paper.
(i) okay can do. (ii) huh? (iii) erm.. whatever.
get the picture? haha.
had gp.. i hate ypo.. gee.. sighx. oh well. met yogi and jessica after school. ran into alan and clement on the way out of school. alan was like, "hey, you're, uhm, nathasha right? yeah, are you going for the boston brass concert?" i was like, "uh......... no." and he waved goodbye and went off on his own merry way~.. haha. yeah. that's it.
i'm tired!!!
the memories
so dear
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
5:17 PM seasports carnival, etc.*
i slept through my alarm this morning, even though my mum said i turned it off by myself when it rang. gee. the things i don't remember doing.
monday, went to school as usual.. recently been going to school later so i don't have time to go meet the band people outside the band room. aww.. haha. anyway. school was quite okay, we started on organic chemistry, then were let off early for seasports carnival!!
my bag felt like a ton of bricks.
went for lunch with jocelyn, genevia, chiah hui, amanda and some of their friends at kfc, then i went to see if there were any comics i wanted to get, but there weren't. gee. haha. then me, genevia, amanda and jocelyn took the train to kallang, then walked to kallang basin. felt like a total idiot wearing the band tee because practically none of the other band members were wearing it!! =( haha. michelle, julian and yogandran were wearing the tee, so i didn't feel that bad, even though it was hot hot hot in that shirt.
almost didn't make it in time to launch the band dragonboat!! eeks!! managed to get into the boat in time though.. phew. haha. went down in my cap and with my watch still on!! had to take off my watch and try to find somewhere dry for it. ._. then we started off for the starting line(what line??).
spirits were high and i'm so glad we were so together on this! even though we didn't win anything, we were the top of the performing arts groups, and hey, that's good enough for me. ;) haha! third in our race, that was great. i'm proud of the band!
michelle, feline and i were going crazy just taking photos. hehee!
me, feline and michelle.
sam, me, and yeeky.
actually asked yeeky to take the photo for me and sam, but he refused because he wanted to be a part of the picture too! haha.
feline. how cute. haha!
ever the hardworking ahma.
woanrong and her ice cream.
ahma~ haha.
gee. haha! they intend to use this to make jason jealous. or something. haha.
then waited for yogi to finish his event, his class dragonboat, then went to singapore indoor stadium to wash up.(my arms are aching ._.) then we thought(or rather, i thought) that 16 could take us back to kallang, so we got on 16, and it brought us.. all the way to tkg! haha! but they weren't having band practice, darn darn darn. i wanted to see my darlings again. haha. oh well. so i gave yogi a little lesson on 'history' as we walked around to the other bus stop that took us to the mrt station at paya lebar. i think he was bored.. sorry!
poor bored yogi..
you know how some things never change.. the staircase of some random building facing the school.
they're doing all this renovation now though. messy.
then took 3 home with yogi from tampines interchange.
today.. gee. monday timetable!! argh!! extra two periods of gp!! *fume fume* ._.
nothing special today. haha!
oh, weiling recruited me as her 9th division captain! i went scouting around for the picture, i think the 9th division captain is actually a black male. ._. gee! haha. okay. well. maybe the sub-captains are a better idea? lol. weiling's offering me renji as an alternative, but she says to wait till this tursday's release to see if there are any other.. more fitting characters. haha!
quote of the day:
"an a.p.(arithmatic progression) is a series. kelvin is a.p.(attitude problem) therefore kelvin is a series."
genevia came up with that, don't ask lol. =)
the memories
so dear
Sunday, July 10, 2005
5:57 PM cosfest 2005*
just back from cosfest 2005!!
you should have been there. the costumes were the ultimate! haha! it was so cool.. i've decided that i'm going to take part in the end-of-year event at the expo. the catch: i need to make my own outfit, and pay the $25 entrance fee =x gee. haha! but it's so cool! all those costumes.. had people dressing up as final fantasy characters, the predator from "alien and predator", samurai x, inuyasha, battle royale(the anime in which everyone dies), star wars, one piece, etc etc! here are some of the pictures, you'll see what i mean.
star wars!
check out the wings..
weiling and two of her team members. her team members are dressed up as yugi-oh characters. cool hehe.
one piece!
mass shot.
cool, right? haha! there were many other wonderful costumes as well.
i saw christabel(tkgs euphonium), and elizabeth(tkgs sax), and rubez, priscilla there! haha. it was cool. elizabeth was dressed as kairi from kingdom hearts, and rubez had this sort-of cowboy outfit on. saw shihan, too, but he didn't talk to me. anyway i was too busy on the phone, oops! haha.
weiling's outfit was so cute! and vera's was, well, goth. what else can i say.. haha.. saw her boy too, he's like her walking atm machine. haha!
it was really really cool. i still haven't decided what i'm going to do for the end of year event yet, but i'll think of something soon! anyone else wanna take part?? hehee. oh, the one i like best was probably okuni, from "samurai warriors". she really looked the part! it was really awesome because there were people with cameras and everything just begging to take photos of these people in costume haha! it was like walking into a dream.. seeing all these anime and game characters 'come alive'.
anyone wanna do chobits with me? heh.
nice experience. guess some things, you just have to be there. =)
the memories
so dear
12:28 PM hehee.*
gee, when was the last time i blogged? thursday? gee! haha!
okay. woanrong called me on thursday night with shocking news. haha. it wasn't that bad la actually, because nothing happened on friday!
went for lunch with yogi on friday, met his friend nat. hehee. nathasha, and natalie. whee. so fun. then had band.. sectionals first. we were told to use the j-block, so me and julian exited the band room from the back door and practiced in the small, dark, stuffy corridor there! haha! was practically dying from the heat.. then went in for combine.. haha.. okay la. nothing much. then the announcement of the new committee..
congratulations to magdaline for the vice-pres post! congratulations to jocelyn for the pres post! congratulations to grace and chong hui, the new student conductors! you guys deserve it =) congrats to azfar, the new quartermaster!!(hehee. i have my reasons for including him on my list. lol.)
ladida, i'm the new lower brass section leader. relieved? yeah. that i am. haha. kinda. haha!
then we went to play soccer, and i realised i had left my phone and wallet on top of my locker, so i had to go back and get. how stupid of me. =x
saturday, went over to my grandma's place, then met woanrong, junwei, kenneth, julian and chonghui for lan. as usual, julian brought his girlfriend along. we went to katong shopping center, but we had to be put on waiting list, so we went to play pool first. got two tables. jingjing seemed content just trying to make julian lose at pool. lol! mark came halfway with a friend, then left. then julian and jingjing left, and we went to play dota. chong hui is like pro la. haha!! taught woanrong how to play. then me, kenneth, woanrong and chong hui went to have dinner. walked to parkway and wandered around mph a while, before going home.. went home alone as usual la.
today.. later i'm heading out to the cosfest at downtown east! i can't wait to see vera in her get-up, and meet her new boyfriend *hehee* well.. i'm bringing my camera la. haha. dressing up a little too. it's gonna be fun.
and that's all. gee.
he's ignoring me liao lah! thanks a lot man.
the memories
so dear
Thursday, July 07, 2005
5:58 PM ladida.*
hmm.. i guess for a first common test, papers were done 'reasonably well', except for chem, but i guess it was expected.
i have decided not to think about it anymore. i'm going to let it all go. actually, i've let it all go already, and i feel free. finally. no more letting stuff tie me down. =) i feel so happy. *sniff* really i do. really.
anyway. yesterday, had dialogue session, then had band. was okay. i ended up holding the door open for the students and the guest of honor. we were made to wear ties.. gee. the wierdest comment i got on that was, "nice tie." strange. it was boring though. i mean. dialogue session. gee. haha.
band was okay. it was really fun. i missed band a lot, and it feels great to be back. next week is seasports carnival, i'm taking part in the inter-cca dragon boat event. it's gonna be so cool. whee! haha. i sound over-excited, don't i. =x
eh i want to play dota.(so random eh.)
today, had lessons as usual. apparently ika let slip to yogi about _____, haha! then she felt guilty. girl, i told you i forgive you! haha. yogi actually wanted to find me during my break inbetween chem and gp, but the teacher moved the 3.30 period up to that breaktime, so couldn't. went to the band room after school. yogi and ika came to find me, then we went to tm. i wanted to eat haha. we went to find ika's friend first, then we went to long john's to eat. then i came home!!
doesn't my day sound exciting! =x haha.
well.. tomorrow's going to be boring.. hope i can find my integration tutorial and do some of it? gee. haha.
oh i love my new cds. hehee.
i'm not going to think about it anymore!!!!! whee~!! haha.
the memories
so dear
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
3:14 PM warcraft!*
i'm online. he's online. so.. let's talk!
yeah, we're talking about everything else except that.
sunday night, got calls from mich, vera, huifang and kiong wee.. the first three asking where and when to meet on monday and the latter asking me if i wanted to go study. after the common tests. how smart! yay! ._. okay anyway.
kiong wee said, "want to come, come, don't need to call us."
monday, met michelle, vera and huifang at orchard.. me and michelle were late abit because i had to wait for michelle, and huifang threatened to kill us both. haha. after much debate, had lunch at pizza hut! haha.. took unflattering photos. gee. then we went shopping for my cd's!
bought ou de yang's liu se cai hong, and the mix cd k ge shu bu qing. yay! haha. i absolutely love those songs! ^_^ then we went to kinokuniya to look for comics.. but apparently the shop doesn't have those i want.. sheesh. oh well. then i went to the airport to look for kiong wee and kenneth.
guess what? they weren't at the airport!! so i called kenneth to ask.. and they were at where? parkway. dots!!!! haha.. anyway, went to parkway to look for them.. then we went to play lan! warcraft!! whee! haha.. i think yesterday was my best game so far. at first i used this character that had teleport, so whenever kiong wee's character teleported to where i was, i teleported away immediately! haha he kept complaining about it! hehe. and yes, fear my lvl 22 medusa!! haha.
after we played for two and a half hours, julian came.. then we played another hour.. haha. me and julian trashed kenneth and kiong wee. haha! yay.. heh. well. kenneth was purposely doing battle with me lah!! =x i drew first blood..
*after i had died the first time..* kenneth: "why you run here run there then suddenly disappear??" me: "this is called strategy mah.. hahah." kenneth: "orh, your strategy is to run around and then die arh?" me: "yah, then i can do this!" *kills kenneth*
hahah.so cool. then he kept wanting revenge, kept trying to draw me out of the base. but me loves me lightning-shooting medusa. bam. heheh. julian had infiltrated their base from the bottom, and they didn't realise it. well, kiong wee was in the toilet and i was kinda distracting kenneth, so. heheh. then we won. ^_^ whee.
yup.. after that took bus with kenneth and kiong wee to the mrt station.. julian went to find jingjing who had come with him.. yups.. then went home lor.
today.. nothing much lor.. talked to chiah hui about *it*.. haha.. yup.. i'm considering everyone's advice very carefully, trust me.. yup..
okie.. tata.. sorry for the abrupt ending *hee*
the memories
so dear
Sunday, July 03, 2005
3:14 PM random.*
czardas is so nice~! haha.. listening to it being played on a tuba.. it's really really nice.. and so professional! haha i can't imagine myself playing it at that speed.. it's scary. it's insane! haha..
i like my wolf picture~~! ^_^ i miss janiria, and sicant, and silver. haha. and not forgetting baby redfarl.. =)
do i sound strange? haha!
30 Things Guys Should Know About Girls Written by a guy. After years of experience.
1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house... they run around in their underwear just like we do..
2. Don't cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud.
3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your butt at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.
4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.
5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.
6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.
7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.
8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.
8.5. If you DO sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.
9. Don't ever do anything wrong. girls remember things for life and anything you did wrong will be used against you in the future.
10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales. (tee hee.)
11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy.
11.5. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!
12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a dinner by him, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.
13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.
14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the crap out of him.
15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.
16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.
17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.
18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.
19. Don't flirt with their moms... that's just freaky.
20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like crap, so be understanding.
21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.
22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.
23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.
24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.
25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.
26. Memorize their birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.
27. Don't marinade the cologne.
28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful.
29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.
30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think.
hahaha.
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i'm not after the material things in life.. and you should know me better than that..
i'm tired of talking to all these people who don't know him personally, because if they knew him, they wouldn't be saying those things about him.. that's one of the reasons why i turned to chelsea.. but the response seems to be somewhat the same.. i don't get it.
am i the only one who has seen you that way..?
sigh.
yeah, i know last year was a bitch.. but then again.. we always look back on the past and say, "yeah, it was a bitch, wasn't it?" we always deny and delude ourselves about stuff but secretly we know the truth and accept it.. the outside is always different from the inside.. the me beneath the facade.. yes? no? who knows..
oh well. i know we're going to have to talk about it soon, but for now i'm trying to put off thinking about it.. but the more i try not to think about it, the more it gets stuck in my head.. basically i'm afraid to talk about it.. i'm scared of the outcome.. hell, i'm even more frightened of the process.. everything that has led up to this.. every word that we have ever said to each other..
of course, i hope it will go well.. because i don't want to lose this friendship.
you know, that kind of friendship that two people share, where you can share everything with each other(and i mean everything), no secrets.. that kind.. i don't want to lose it, it means too much to me. sigh~~..
i'm reluctant to lay it all down.. to risk it for the sake of 12152205. bleagh.
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american graffiti eleven and japanese graffiti seven! anyone else has recordings of the other japanese/american graffitis? send them to me here! yay! haha.
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okay, nat shall not be sad anymore. nat shall be a happy girl.
well, i'm not sad, actually. i'm just not happy. hmm, a strange way of looking at things, eh? haha. okay.
but what else is there to do on a sunday afternoon other than be bored and think about *that*.. sigh..
i wish you'd call me.. i'm waiting for your call.. because i'm afraid to call you.. and we do need to talk about this.. sigh.. i wish someone understood..
the memories
so dear
12:18 PM well..*
talking to kiong wee and guanyu right now on msn.. guanyu's dragging me to this center in serangoon to donate blood.. no, i'm not donating! i'm scared of blood. or rather, it's the thought of blood just like flowing out of me that scares me la. haha.. i'm such a coward right. sigh.
guanyu seems over-excited about the whole donating blood thing.. erm.. okay.. hahahahaha..
a long time since i put up pictures for u guys to see right? hehehe. some pictures of yesterday.. and a few of my brother's girlfriend's hamster. hehee.
me and chelle, after she cut her hair.. so cute! =x
marcus being silly.
sigh. marcus, what are you doing with your lunch..
hamster!!
isn't it so cute? haha!
listening to jap graf seven that guanyu sent to me.. i miss the tjcsb days!! sigh. it's so nice~~~~!!!!!
*ignore me i'm going crazy~~*
and now she's sending me american graf eleven.. and czardas.. yay! haha.
guanyu, send me more songs!! =D
the memories
so dear
Saturday, July 02, 2005
4:36 PM dotdotdotdotdot*
me is back from meeting marcus and michelle.. i cycled to downtown east to meet them. we had lunch at bk, then michelle left for her cip thing. marcus and i went down to the beach for a while.. then went back to dte.. he tricked me into playing lan~!! haha.. because he asked me to show him how to play dota.. and i ended up playing dota.. haha!
first time i had a stranger sitting next to me instructing me where to go and asking me to help him in his lane! haha.. but we still lost in the end.. aww.. this time, though, my skeleton king was level 15!! whee! haha.. first time so high level.. haha.. and it has revive too! cool. but the stun thing sucks.. only two seconds.. haha.. but at least i managed to kill some heros? yay!
then marcus went off to bugis to meet michelle.. so i came home.. yup..
hmm.. sian.. can't wait for school again~~!
oh yeah. check this out.
FINE This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use "fine" to describe how a woman looks this will cause you to have one of those arguments.
FIVE MINUTES This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so it's an even trade.
NOTHING This means "something", and you should be on your toes. "Nothing" is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. "Nothing" usually signifies anargument that will last "Five Minutes" and end with "Fine".
GO AHEAD (With Raised Eyebrows) This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over "Nothing" and will end with the word "Fine".
GO AHEAD (Normal Eyebrows) This means "I give up" or "do what you want because I don't care" You will get a "Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead" in just a few minutes, followed by "Nothing" and "Fine" and she will talk to you in about "Five Minutes" when she cools off.
LOUD SIGH This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing".
SOFT SIGH Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. "Soft Sighs" mean that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.
THAT'S OKAY This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. "That's Okay" is often used with the word "Fine" and in conjunction with a "Raised Eyebrow".
GO AHEAD. At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble.
PLEASE DO This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be carefuland you shouldn't get a "That's Okay."
THANKS A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say you're welcome.
THANKS A LOT This is much different from "Thanks." A woman will say, "Thanks A Lot" when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the "Loud Sigh." Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the "Loud Sigh," as she will only tell you "Nothing."
hehee, cool right. =)
the memories
so dear
11:24 AM weekend*
so fast.. it's second of july already! hmm.. concert's in about a month's time..
yesterday, had chinese listening paper, then went to macs to have breakfast with genevia. heard a lot of people fell asleep during the listening paper.. haha! then went for a stroll even though it was about 9+ in the morning and most shops were closed.. ran into chiah hui, jocelyn, amanda, grace, and a few of their friends! haha. chiah hui was like so happy to see us =x haha.. then genevia had a talk with chiah hui, while the rest of us just did all kinds of silly stuff..
jocelyn and her friend sat on this kiddy ride.. haha i have pictures but jocelyn made me promise not to put them up. haha. and when toys-r-us opened, we were the first group to enter!! i have come to the conclusion that jc students have no childhood; immediately after us came a bunch of mjc people!! haha. we played around with everything with no intention of buying anything. haha.. took plenty of pictures. =) all sorts of silly things we people get up to when the exams are over haha!
went to adidas after that.. jocelyn and one of her friends bought a new bag each, $40++.. so expensive! =x haha.. ohwells.. as long as they like it i guess. they were like, 'so patriotic.. one person red bag one person white bag..' haha.. then we ran into xin ni.. i took her clarinet for her, and grace and amanda took it as a sign to give me their clarinets as well.. haha i must have looked like an idiot, carrying three clarinets? lol.
went back to school for band.. i don't know why daniel lets julian keep the band room keys when he's obviously going to oversleep and make us wait for him to come open the door and waste time. gah. band started at 12; julian came at 1. make that 1+. he seemed a little miffed when he came. simin asked why he was so late, and juian told her that he had "fainted on the way there so my mum who just happened to be on the way back home had to ask someone to help her bring me back home then when i woke up i rushed here already lor." then simin said that he could have called someone in the band, but julian's ever-so-witty replay was that "faint liao how to call??"
dots..
band was okay.. terrence and kwang liang didn't come.. then when sujin was telling us to go for sectionals, he mentioned something about sl's somethingsomething, then me and ika were like, what sl? kenneth decided to go join the saxophone section, you see. haha poor ika's on her own.
well, went to play lan after band with julian, kiong wee, sujin, kenneth, jason, vickie, clement, and jun wei.. hwaee and michelle were there too i think? haha. after that went home.. tired.
this morning marcus called me.. sigh i forgot to call him back. i fell asleep again after i put down the phone. sigh.. anyway, him and michelle tan are enjoying themselves at wild wild wet right about now..
yes, and i'm going to meet him and michelle now~! going beach..
sigh wanted to sms him but in the end didn't get a chance to? never mind, later i'll just sms him or something..
the memories
so dear
im waiting for the day.
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