l 0 v e*]] is about seeing his faults
knowing his shortcomings
and yet
you know you can't live
w i t h o u t h i m..
*three simple words
*i love you.
*i hope you feel the same way too.
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you, and me.
since o8/10/o5
memoriesofyouandme=)
Monday, June 20, 2005
3:43 PM hmm.*
thoughts.
thoughts of me, thoughts of you.
thoughts of the past, thoughts of the now, thoughts of the future.
thoughts of the old, thoughts of the new.
thoughts of the things that changed, thoughts of the things that never will.
thoughts of him, thoughts of her, thoughts of us, thoughts of them.
thoughts.
thoughts of me, thoughts of you, thoughts of us.
you know, sometimes it hurts to think of the past, or stumble upon something that reminds you of the past. i know the feeling all too well. sometimes it's better to forget, sometimes it's better to remember. in this case.. i don't know which. i've tried to forget, but you're still there, in a corner of my mind. i try to remember but it hurts too badly to do so. it makes me wonder what life would have been like without you. i probably wouldn't be so open. i probably would think less about stuff, unlike now when i can spend hours thinking about the same thing, over and over.
well, what am i doing here, then?
i don't know. i feel strangely.. indifferent.
i hear the songs. i know they're not meant for me. they never were. but time and time again, they amaze me.. i don't know why, but while it used to make me feel like crying, my cursor goes up to that little box with an 'x' and goes *click*. i don't know why i still go there in the first place. after all..
you know, i don't understand why i still dwell on the past. i'd really like to move on with my life, meet new people. in fact, i do move on, but a part of me is just lagging behind, and i need to pull it back.
i'm stubborn.. i refused to remove all traces of you from my life, the way you erased me from yours. i guess, in the end, it's my fault after all.. but i can't just let it go the way you could.. if i did, it would mean forgetting many other memories of other fun times i shared with other people, the things that they did that reminded me of you, or just talking to some of them about you. like that birthday celebration, when i walked with him, and we talked. or rather, he brought it up out of jest. or those times i talked to him over sms. those were good times as well.. but if i were to forget you, does that mean i have to forget those conversations i had with him? how could i forget? it's impossible.
i want to forget. i need to forget. i have to. because i have to move on. yet.. something holds me back.
im waiting for the day.
nat` ;
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for you to tell me.
#1tuba
#2bball
#3soccer
#4band
#5piano
that you love me too.
#1new wallet
#2new phone[samsung sgh-e730/e720c]
#3good grades for promos
#4lose weight
#5him[found him]
escape from reality
dec 05 - eoy @ expo - rhode from dgray man - pending
dec 05 - photoshoot - rhode from dgray man
dec 05 - videoshoot - sara(vampires anonymous)
mar 06 - photoshoot - cocowet from erementer gerad
dec 06 - eoy @ ???? - cocowet from erementer gerad