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Friday, May 06, 2005
5:01 PM argh.*
there's this pent-up frustration in me that i seriously need to release before i go absolutely nuts.
enough about that.
we got gold.. so why are we sad?
monday: the practice at sch was much better.. in fact, dr lee said we played our best after being inspired by acjc.. haha. he said that our confidence needed to be boosted, and acjc was over-confident. so yep. went for dinner with some of the band members, kiong wee, kian hong, wei xiang, woan rong, julian and chong hui at long johns. ran into the trombonists there too. haha.. well. have a few pictures that i would put up if my camera was with me right now. it's locked in the band room, along with my wallet. oh well.
tuesday: practice was horrible. in the morning julian lost the band room keys. and i had to go with him to his place and his girlfriend's place to look for them. in the end he found them in his room underneath his chair. then he sat down on the couch and read the newspaper. and switched on the television. i was like, erm, don't you have lesson at 10.50? diaox.. don't wanna talk about it. talked about the band on the way home with ter. quite paiseh lahs..
wednesday: practice was good. everyone was getting scared and everything. even me. julian asked mag if she would freak, then he asked me. i told him i might, then he said "okay, if you freak tell me okay then i can cover up for you". and he laughed. how insensitive. fine lah. the rest of the band went out for dinner. dr lee asked me if i was going to eat with them, then i told him i couldn't because my mum wouldn't let me. he said that i should tell her "i'm seventeen already, want to get a boyfriend le.." ooookay. went home with ter. talked to him a bit, about performing, stage fright, and crap.
thursday: brought milo and chocolate for my section. =) i was starting to feel really really nervous, starting to close up and everything. just didn't want to talk. i know i made mag worried, i'm so sorry.. she kept asking if i was okay, trying to get me to talk, but i just didn't want to. on the way there i was abit quiet. okay, not a bit, very. but yeah. was quite excited to go on stage.. couldn't wait for everything to be over. once we got out of the hall, we were all called to the back because dr lee wanted to tell us something. i didn't hear what it wasbecause i was trying to console kaixiang, who was crying because he said he came in early for the last part of gloriosa. actually, no one noticed that he came in early! so we had no idea why he was crying until he told me. aww. heard from julian that dr lee said that we played better than acjc! =) after kaixiang stopped crying we went into the concert hall to listen to some of the other bands, only to get chased out before tj played. not fair! i wanted to see everyone!!
saw cuiyin before the results were announced. i miss her so much! i hugged her tightly, then edmund came up to us! he suprised me! haha.. then cuiyin was like, 'hug edmund too' so i did. i miss them all so much. we chatted for a while. i miss talking to them, each and every one of them. said hi to yaocong but he dao-ed me. i didn't dare to speak to luther in case he dao-ed me too, so i asked cuiyin to tell him congrats for me. saw kwang han too. i kept scanning the ajc band for jesper, kept staring at the eupho section before i saw the familiar hairstyle on the bass trombonist! he had changed to bass trombone.. man i miss him to much. haven't spoken to him in ages. saw baowen and terrence(tj oboist) and everyone! haha.. =) it was just so great. we should get together some time.. catch up and everything. i can't say how much i totally miss them. especially cui, edmund and jesper. *hee*
we got a gold! at first we were pleasently suprised. but i think our school was the only one who didn't make a big deal out of getting a gold. i mean, mj got a gold and they were screaming like crazy. we just sat there sort of stunned.
so, it's kinda obvious we weren't happy with just a gold. we desperately wanted the gold with honours.. but i guess our standard isn't there yet. yet.
went back to school.. dr lee was nagging us about our long faces.. because we weren't happy with the gold. it's just.. oh well. back as school, i was going out of the band room when on impulse i just went and gave grace a huge hug just to tell her i love her.. and she just started crying! i was quite stunned for a moment but i just let her cry on my shoulder.. then after that i let the clarinetists talk to her. she's okay now. i'm glad. =D
today sucked. i went to the band room, left my wallet and camera there, and they conveniently locked the door. i guess they didn't know my stuff was inside.. but yeah, it was. now they know. oh well.
don't feel like talking anymore. byebye.
*i wanna talk to cuicui and jes and edmund!! =D
the memories
so dear
im waiting for the day.
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