l 0 v e*]] is about seeing his faults
knowing his shortcomings
and yet
you know you can't live
w i t h o u t h i m..
*three simple words
*i love you.
*i hope you feel the same way too.
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+anything bad you wanna say, say it to my face. thanks.
you, and me.
since o8/10/o5
memoriesofyouandme=)
Saturday, April 30, 2005
5:05 PM running*
i noticed that it has often been like this.
we run down the same long road together all the memories the laughter the wonderful times we had the moments we shared time passes so fast everything's a blur but i remember it all every single day we're running always have been always will be or so it seemed then you just turned away from me flashing your bright smile running in another direction calling goodbyes over your shoulder suddenly everything comes to a halt stopping in the middle of nowhere watching you leave me standing there watching hoping you'll come back thinking you'll come back to me until i don't see you again then dreadingly i continue my journey alone some days someone joins me on the rough road but just like you they leave me too and i always think they'll be back but i'm always wrong.
i've decided i'm not waiting anymore. life's too short. i can't be waiting for everyone everytime they leave. therefore..
six days. one of my shortest crushes ever.
and it's five days left to syf..
guess other than syf, i won't be doing anything on 050505 anymore.. *sighs
the memories
so dear
4:14 PM and whoa.*
the echo is so cha0 nice!!!! haha..
okay, today had band.. went for breakfast with mag, woan rong, jing zhong, kwang liang and kiong wee.. brought back breakfast for ter who woke up late and couldn't join us. anyway.. today's band prac was great.. there's this huge sense of improvement.. and after playing the first eight bars of singapore rhapsody, when dr lee cut the sound we could hear the echo once or twice.. there was once when we heard it, everyone was in awe.. stunned.. until we didn't come in when dr lee started conducting bar nine!! >_< haha! it was absolutely amazing! the echo starts from the low sounds and goes all the way up to the high sounds.. it's terrific.
tomorrow, we're having a sound check at sch(singapore conference hall, not school..) and i hope that the sound will still be able to come out! it's so nice!! =D
haha.. went to tm with mag today. bought wristbands that say "no boundary". they're supposed to be gifts for the section, sort of like motivate them and spur them on to greater heights, blah blah.. haha.. i now only have one problem.. how to explaing to them why the wristbands are pink.. hahahs..
hmm.. kinda excited. nat said she might come see us tomorrow. i hope she will, it's been so long! haha.. i miss her.
quick! think of some design for the basses tee!! =D
organ sound.. hahah.
TPJCSB, WE CAN DO IT! GOLD WITH HONOURS(and dr lee's treat at the grand hyatt) HERE WE COME!! =D
the memories
so dear
Friday, April 29, 2005
7:41 PM whee~*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIAN!
hehee. today was a sucky day right from the start.
1) had to run for the bus 2) forgot about the fmath test 3) didn't know what to say to julian when i saw him because i quarreled with him the previous night.
anyway, christopher, kiong wee, azfar, sujin and JULIAN had a nice time behind closed doors in the band storeroom, eh?? ;) i've got pictures to show how much fun we all had!! muahahahaha.
okay. anyway. i'm still thinking. getting a headache.
been allocated all the one- and two-player parts for singapore rhapsody. so yeah. stress sia.
*stressstressstress
the memories
so dear
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
6:45 PM and.*
1) i dropped out of running for council. too cowardly to stand in front of the school to say something. even though i knew what i was supposed to say(make them happy so they vote for you, happiness up, votes up) and everything i still backed out. but alvin's group was cute! 2) only 12x100 boys got in to semis. i can only conclude that guys run real slowly because my class 12x100 boys were second in the heats. man. what happened to my 4x100 girls!!!!! 3) 48/100 for singapore rhapsody and 30/100 for gloriosa.
i want to elabourate on point three. you see, dr lee came in and wanted to just conduct once. we weren't really prepared, but still. he graded us with those marks. it was so awful, i just wanted to cry there and then. after that, dr lee said he wanted to go home for dinner, so the basses had sectionals with the percussion. kiong wee gave this really touching speech, and i almost really cried. there was this one tear though, but i wiped it away before anyone could see it. at least, i hope no one saw it. how embarrassing.. but it's really quite depressing.
4) michelle well uh nevermind. haha she knows what i'm talking about. 5) we're having band practice at 7-7.25 am everyday. and then we train by running down to the assembly grounds at 7.25. how wonderful. 6) help me decide. 050505, or 130505. 7) people are falling sick. including him. so please, take care of yourselves, people! i know it's only about one week to syf.. but yeah.. health is more important! take vitamin c, drink more water! oranges are good =)
yup, well. went for sectionals today.. julian pang seh me lah.. hahahs.. ter's sick and mag had a test or something. and i don't know where kwang liang went, so. get well soon, ter.. =) then after that went to tm with michelle tan. still wondering what i should buy for my section.. maybe just postcards lah. haha since i can't decide. =)
remember me this way
ahh. *sighs*
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai ai neng bu neng gou yong yuan dan chun mei you bei ai wo xiang dai ni qi dan che wo xian he ni kan bang qiu xiang zhe yang mei dan you chang zhe ge yi zhi zhou wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai ai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shang hai ni kao zhe wo de jian pang ni zai wo xiong kou shui jiao xiang zhe yang de shen huo wo ai ni ni ai wo
those are lyrics from jay chou's jian dan ai(simple love).. i really really like that song, especially the frist line.. i wanna hold your hand like this and never let go. =)
okok, gotta go.
the memories
so dear
Sunday, April 24, 2005
7:40 PM *
why have i been removed as a member of the tuba section blog?? T_T
haha.. mag knows lots of secrets, eh mag? but no, your name was not mentioned more than two times. hahahahahahahah so there.
went to take passport photo just now with jiemin.. omg i look so ugly can.. haha.. so stupid! then after that jiemin and i went to the playground to talk.. told her about school and band.. haha.. yups.. a lot of stuffs..
i feel compelled to make this announcement. i know everyone in the band has heard about it and rumours are spreading like wildfire, but where sujin is concerned right, please limit to just serene and kelly can? i don't like to hear my name and his in the same sentance. not that i have anything against sujin, but i thought i should make it clear that i do not like sujin. thanks a lot lah, julian. ._.
*obsessobsessobsess
*jealousjealousjealous
less than one month since.. but already.. oh wells.. guess some things can't be helped..
the memories
so dear
1:17 PM sigh and sigh again.*
it's andrew's fault, i swear. how could he remind me about homework on such a beautiful day like this? okay, it's freaking hot, but still! ._.
before i forget, i wanna thank everyone who said they'd vote for me for the upcoming council elections. jul said it's going to be stressful, but hey, you just watch me. *grins* there's a council meeting for applicants this monday(which omgomg is tomorrow) at 4.20.. jul will probably kill me since i'm gonna go for band late. hais.. he's not very happy with mag either. but well. yeah. you know.
i'm so freaking jealous lahs.. ._. lucky guy. ahhhhhhh..
"you two look so cute together!"
*sighs*
to tell, or not to tell..
will you be my one-winged angel?
the memories
so dear
Saturday, April 23, 2005
5:29 PM uhm. *screams**
whoohoo.
walked into the provision shop today, and as i plunked my iced tea and one dollar coin on the table, the television behind me blares with an interview about the new casino. this old guy's on the screen talking in rapid chinese.
"yi bai kuai? bu yong du liao lah, du zhi qian jiu yi jing shu qian liao."($100? don't need to gamble already, before you gamble you've already lost money.)
to which the uncle manning the counter goes, in hokkien: "ju si mai hor le jip ke, le buai hiao arh?"(because they don't want to let you in what, don't understand arhs?)
it's kinda stupid. sighs.
well, let's see. what i have not done.
handed in my form to sign up for council
taken a passport-size photo for my form to sign up for council
get a jc2 councillor to back my application for council
fmath tutorials 5a, 5b and 5c
physics tutorial on dynamics
chemistry tutorial on, uh, bonding?
gp newspaper reviews(2)
gp comprehension
pw preliminary ideas
practiced enough for band.
well, guess that's the way it's going to be. busy busy busy. hey, i'm not complaining.
grossed julian out on thursday because i hugged michelle in front of him. haha, what's the big deal? it's just a hug. we do it all the time. it's the way girls greet each other. or something like that. anyway. oh this week we celebrated birthdays. just wait till i get the pictures.
why can't you stop bugging me??
i broke down last night.. a lot of things just piling on me. strain's unbelievable. oh dear..
today, met up with my tkgs tublets.. haha i think that's such a cute name for them, don't you think? =D anyway. they were bag-shopping. i hate shopping. oh well.
i feel so tired. terrence and i were sleeping on our tubas before combine today. mag said something which i shall not say here because i would totally die. ._.
i just want to sleepsleepsleep.
will you believe mag didn't sleep the whole night, and was still more energetic than me?????
what is that girl on, man. i gotta get some of it. hahaha.
for now, work. tata.
the memories
so dear
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
7:23 PM well.*
here's a bit of news: i walk into gp class today and find out i'm running for council.
yes, you have my permission to pick your jaws off the floor now.
i had no idea either until this morning when shafira told me they needed 2 people from each class to run for council, or something to that extent. and one was me.
the other is andrew yeo. or so they say.
should i be insanely overjoyed? after all, i did have thoughts of joining council back in the first three months.
...nah.
and if by some miracle you see me as a council member, congratulate me, then sit back and watch as i juggle band, council and four a level subjects.
life is bee-yooou-tiful.
the memories
so dear
Sunday, April 17, 2005
1:40 PM things to think about*
"The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in."
"A friend is someone who can see the truth and pain in you even when you are fooling everyone else."
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
"A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believes the smile on your face"
I believe in angels, the kind that heaven sends. I'm surrounded by angels, and I call them my best friends.
"When it hurts to look back, and you're afraid to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there."
When we first talked to each other I knew we would always be friends. Our friendship has kept on growing And I'll be here for you to the end.
You listen when I have a problem And help dry the tears from my face. You take away my sorrow And put happiness in its place.
We can't forget the fun we've had Laughing 'til our faces turn blue. Talking of things only we find funny People think we're insane-If they only knew!
I guess this is my way of saying thanks For catching me when I fall. Thanks once again for being such a good friend And being here with me through it all.
ahhh.. i've been feeling so tired, i just feel like i'm drifting.. far away..
i walk my days in a daze. sleep like the dead only to find.. i'm still tired. this weariness.. this weight on my shoulders. when will it be lifted? the tears that build up in my eyes.. i refuse to shed. keeping it all inside instead. never reveal the pain that i feel. never confess my true feelings. am i ever going to find release?
and now, just, what, 20 days to syf.. i'm really starting to feel the strain and the pressure.. by right i shouldn't feel it.. i love the feeling of going on stage and performing to the best of my capabilities.. so what should make this time any different? because it's a competition? i don't remember going through this phase back in sec3. i don't remember feeling all this weight on me. i remember others going through this, but not me. why now?
it hurts to think. it hurts to even open my eyes. i'm tempted to sleep and never wake up.
getting constant headaches.. not a good sign. depression might be sinking in, but i don't know what for. even though julian hit the right spot when he said that we all get weary sometimes and need motivation.. i think i'm going to need a lot of it to pull me through this.. i know he's trying very hard too, and trying to keep everyone's spirits up, but sometimes he does get on my nerves. it's times like these..
omg. it's true. i can't cry anymore.
the memories
so dear
Saturday, April 16, 2005
6:43 PM *insane laughter here**
okay! let's see what has happened this week.
actually, i can't remember what happened this week. i only know that 1) some great secret has been revealed to me 2) i have been adopted by michelle(more about that later) 3) my ichigo 100% 10 and zettai kareshi 6 are out!! 4) more great secrets that will be revealed to one and all in due time 5) ahhahah fear me, i am improving my warcraft skills. but 3v2 is not fair.
okay. number one. haha.. it's just something stupid and trivial that concerns two people in our class. but i can't say because one of the persons concerned would kill me!! and the person who told me about it, for that matter.
two. let me start from the top, which has absolutely nothing to do with michelle's adopting my, but i shall blog about it anyway! if you're not interested, just scroll down.
friday, was quite fun because lessons ended so early. after that, went for lunch in the canteen with kiong wee, kwang liang and christopher. soon after, sujin, julian and daniel came to join us. when we had somewhat finished, we saw a very familiar figure wandering around our canteen - dr lee. julian asked him to join us, and hey, dr lee's not such a bad guy. haha. after that, we went in the direction of the band room. it was like dr lee had a retinue of seven students, haha. he asked us to get the acs baritone sax from his car. we had quite a hard time trying to locate his car, then julian, christopher, sujin and kiong wee proceeded to carry it funeral style. you know, like four people carrying the 'coffin', in front must have picture and behind must have people crying.. haha the clarinetists were practicing outside the audi and hey were practically staring as we walked past with fake tears! even dr lee and mr lim were laughing at us. band was okay. i don't like the hall, though, it's so freaking hot there. but hey, i had something to take my mind off the heat! *chuckles* after band, went to have dinner with kenneth, kiong wee, clement, sujin, christopher, kwang liang, daniel, grace, cloe, eileen, suvenna, jun wei, jing zhong, julian, mark and alan. ate at bk. michelle, hwaee, vickie and jason came later. soon after, everyone broke up to go home. grace had to wait for her dad, so we went to 77th street first. i wanted to buy this wristband that had the word 'perserverence' on it, one for each of my sectionmates, but they didn't have a larger size, and i don't think the small one would fit on any of my sectionmates' hands. haha.. after that we still had some time, so we went to bug michelle and jason in bk(grace's idea!!). jason noticed us first, but grace signalled for him to keep quiet and we sat right next to michelle and him. michelle didn't notice until about five minutes later! when we were about to go, we went to talk to them first. grace was patting jason's head.. haha. then michelle suddenly asked me if i wanted to be her grandaughter. so i was like, okay.. and she said, okay, you and grace are now sisters. which means yeekiat's my dad, so no thanks!! haha.. i already got a mama and a papa.. haha.. so now grace's my cousin.
by the way, ichigo 100% and zettai kareshi are comic books. haha.
ooh, now this gets interesting. i have this announcement to make to the world: kelly likes sujin!! for those new to the sujin-saga, let me give you a brief insight.
first, it was rumoured that serene likes sujin
no confirmation from the lead 'actor', but he says her actions imply that she likes him.
today, someone messaged chong hui to say that 'tell sujin that kelly likes him'.
we are still currently in the process of helping sujin pick his prospective girlfriend.
ah, the whole band's going to find out by monday. and we plan to tell dr lee too. hahahahah.
today: went for band early in the morning. met sujin, daniel and kiong wee outside the school gate by chance around 6.30. was kinda wierd to be in school so early in the morning. grace brought food!! *hugs* band was okay. mr mira came. it's so confusing, all these japanese people coming down, with names like minowa, mira, miwa, and miro. but it was good. he didn't comment on the tubas, so i assume the section's okay. after band, we had this talk with mr lim and mrs neo. then mag and i went to meet candice before i went to find julian, kiong wee and kenneth.
we went to meet jun wei, alan, christopher and yu ngai after that for lan. the queue was so long we decided to go to bugis. sujin, yu ngai and julian pang seh us lah.. haha. in the end, only me, alan, kiong wee, christopher, jun wei and kenneth went to play. we played warcraft again.. haiyohs. at least i did better this time! i had this wierd stick-figure-like creature, but at least it got up to level 10, instead of that sad level 6 the previous time.
christopher and i lost to jun wei, kenneth and alan.
kiong wee's computer couldn't access warcraft, so he played counterstrike instead. after, he commented that the others were bullying first-timers like me and christopher haha. well.
went home with kenneth.
all in all, it was a very fun day.
i feel very very tired. i'm sorry if this wasn't such a substential post, but i really can't remember everything that's happened.
one thing before i go.
excuse me, ni ke yi watch your mouth abit ma? sui ran ni yi zhi shuo wo shi 'brother' zhi lei de, qing ni bu yao wang le: at the end of it all, wo hai shi ge nv de. wo bu xiang ni men she me dou ke yi jie shou de. i also have my own principles de. ni ke yi shuo hua zhi qian kao lui yi xia wo de gan shou ma? ni chang chang yong zi lai feng ci wo, wo sui ran she me dou bu shou, zhe bu dai biao wo nen jie shou. wo de nai xin ye you xian du de.. ru guo ni re wo shen qi, ma fan jiu da le. bai tuo, yi hou yao kao lui ren jia de gan shou xian, hao ma?
hais.
the memories
so dear
Sunday, April 10, 2005
1:07 PM insert witty/meaningful title here.*
warcraft three: dota allstars can actually be fun if played properly.
yes, here i am, pointing out my sad inability to bring my level 6 arachnid to any form of glory. perhaps it was because i chose the arachnid in the first place. darn those dark elves, they're supposed to be teh powerforce in warcraft. or so i thought. lesson learnt: if they look cool, they probably suck. nat, make a mental note not to choose anything with more than two legs and four arms. haha.
all in all, i still think cs is the best. haha.. trying to get back o my 'former glory'.. usued to do a hell lot more than 20+ frags. haha. well, now with cs3, the controls are different. the last time i played i spent a whole ten minutes tying to figure out where my beloved mp5 navy was. lots of free frags. ._. and the there's the shotguns and the semi-autos, i can't tell the two apart but i know that the semi-auto, despite its long reloading time, kicks serious butt. man, i have to find out what's the combination for that gun. haha.. back in goodness-knows-when, mp5 navy used to be b-3-1, but now, i still haven't found out what it is. thankfully, all the grenades and armour are still in the same place, b-8. haha.
i'm in another of those 'hey-let's-change-my-blog-template!' moods. help me.
the band forum is starting to flood! haha i wanna post, but somehow i can't find any encouraging words to put on the board.
mmhmm. i haven't been myself lately, have i? or maybe it's just that i'm going back to my old self. the old nat, the one who used to have no social life, visited parkway for the first time only in sec3 even though it was only a few bus stops away. the one who used to be quiet, withdrawn, and somewhat antisocial. the one who never smiled. haha a lot of my classmates from sec4 told me that i should smile more. hmm. well, when i came to jc i decided i was going to be a whole new nat. one who didn't have any qualms about doing crazy stuff in front of people, who didn't care what people thought or said, who was going to make people remember her, who was going to be so enthusiastic about everything. haha, i guess that all this enthusiasm had to burn out sometime. just had to be now, didn't it? sigh. and then there's the stress of the upcoming syf. my juniors are freaking out and i'm doing all i can to keep them together, when i myself feel like i'm falling apart. i'm not even sure what's tearing at me. it's crazy. insane.
*runs out of things to say*
it's at times like this, i feel so tired. it's times like this, that i don't want to continue. it's times like this, i wish i could just sleep, then awaken full of energy and ready to meet the day and it's challenges like i used to, instead of gearing myself up for another grueling day of lessons. i miss the cheer in class. i miss the crap. i miss the days when i could cry. because, after forcing myself not to cry for so long, i fear i've forgotten how to.
scary, isn't it?
anyway. thanks to michelle ngiam and sam for supporting me. =) i know you miss the bubbly me, believe me, i miss her too. i just hope i can go back to the way i was. i guess it's just pre-syf pressure, on top of an extra subject, and extra responsibilities as c-rep of s29. stress. hais. maybe it's knowing that syf's so close, and yet i'm still screwing up bars 1 and 2 of gloriosa, or not being able to pitch the stupid low g at bars 176-177 and play in tune. maybe it's the fact that i'm an actual sars(stupid and retarded student) because i can't hear he organ sound, not even when dr lee points it out. remember on friday when he kept pointing it out at 177? i couldn't hear it at all. how stupid is that? i bet everyone else knows how it sounds like except me. sighs. i wanna go stone at the beach one day, before the syf, and find some way to release all this fustration that's building up inside me. find some way to relax.
*takes deep breaths*
thanks again to michelle and sam. *hugs* i love you guys.. you're the absolute greatest. *tries to smile*
oh, someone help me.
the memories
so dear
10:28 AM underlying meanings*
there are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love that we feel. for fear of embarrassing the other person, or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words, "i love you". so we try to communicate the idea in other words. we say 'take care' or' don't drive too fast' or 'be good'. but really, these are just other ways of saying 'i love you', 'you are important to me', 'i care what happens to you', 'i don't want you to get hurt'. we are sometimes very strange people. the only thing we want to say, and the one thing we should say, is the thing we don't say. and yet, because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean. and many times the meaning never gets communicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted. therefore we have to listen for love in the words that people are saying to us. sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but often, the manner of saying things is even more important. a joyous insult carries more love and affection within the sentiments that are expressed insincerely.
an impulsive hug says 'i love you' even though the words spoken may be very different. any expression of a person's concern for you says 'i love you'. sometimes the espression is clumsy, sometimes even cruel. sometimes we must look and listen very intently for the love it contains. but it is often there, beneath the surface. we say 'i love you' in many ways - with birthday gifts, and little notes, with smiles and sometimes tears. sometimes we show our love by just keeping quite, and not saying a word, and sometimes speaking out, even brusquely. we show our love sometimes by impulsiveness. many times we have to show our love by forgiving someone who has not listened to the love we have tried to express.
the problem in listening for love is that we don't always understand the language of love which the other person is using. a girl may use tears or emotions to say what she wants to say,and her boyfriend may not understand her because he expects her to be speaking his language. thus, we have to force ourselves to really listen for love. the problem with out world is that people rarely listen to each oher. they hear the words, but they don't listen to the actions that accompany the words or the expression on the face. or people only listen for the rejection or misunderstanding. they do not see the love that is there, just beneath the surface, even if the words are angry. we have to listen for love in those around us. if we listen intently we will discover that we are a lot more loving than we realise. listen for love and we will find that the world is a very loving place, after all.
love is a happy thing. it makes us laugh. it makes us sing. it makes us sad. it makes us cry. it makes us seek the reason why. it makes us take. it makes us give. above all else, it makes us live. it is not the presence or absense of people that makes the difference because a person need not be lonely even if he is alone. but that does not make us lonely. it is not a matter of being present with someone. it is a matter of being present to someone. so remember, if you love someone, tell them. remember to always say what you mean. never be afraid to express yourself. take this opportunity to tell someone what they mean to you. sieze the day and have no regrets. most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are to day, and are what it's all about anyway.
some things to consider:
love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. don't cry over someone who won't cry over you. if love isn't a game, then why are there so many players? good friends are hard to find, harder to leave and impossible to forget. the hardest thing to do is to watch the one you love love somebody else. life's short. if you don't look around once in a while, you might miss it. a best friend is like a four-leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have. some people make the world special by just being in it. best friends are the siblings god forgot to give you. when it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, look beside you and your best friend will be there. true friendship never ends. friends are forever. good friends are like stars. you don't always see them, but you know that they are always there. don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile. what do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. everything's okay in the end. if it's not, then it's not the end. most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
some humour..
murphy's laws: 1) nothing is as easy as it looks. 2) everything lasts longer than you think. 3) anything that can go wrong will go wrong. 4) if there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the one to go wrong. corollary: if there is a worse time for something to go wrong, it will happen. 5) if anything simply cannot go wrong, it will anyway. 6) if you percieve that therer are four ways in which a procedure can go wrong, and circumvent these, then a fifth way, unprepared for, will promptly develop. 7) left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse. 8) if everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something. 9) nature always sides with the hidden flaw. 10) it is impossible to make anything foolproof because fools are so ingenious.
haha.. take some time to think about this.. it's really very meaningful.
woke up rather late today, that' because i slept late yesterday. i have theory of equation homework to do, and i need to borrow someone's inverse trig. oh well.
tata.
the memories
so dear
Saturday, April 09, 2005
6:11 PM *yawns**
i am finally home yes yes i made it home alive!!!!
with a headache, nonetheless, i shall blog. wahahahahs.
now where's my file. *scrabbles*
this week has come and gone with many many many interesting events. let me start with tuesday.
tuesday, day one of actual lessons. had civics, smsed ian to meet up for physics but apparently he didn't read my message, and i ended up sitting with louis and yong teck somewhere at the back. yong teck was learning card tricks! haha i know how he does some of his tricks, but the rest just mystify me. after that we had two periods of fmaths. sat with chun hoe, who promptly fell asleep. he shared his mp3 player with me. i have to admit, ms yeah seems a great teacher, but she's a little strict, especially when it comes to punctuality and uniform. after that, mr chew took over the lecture for mathematical induction, but it seemed more of he was talking to himself.. but i guess i've got the hang of mathematical induction, it's pretty simple. after all it's a math c topic. after fmaths was pe. all we did was take height and weight. man, i really have to watch my weight.. ._. had break, then went for physics lab lesson where we basically did nothing except listen to ms chia talk. gp was a killer. i didn't know who was in my gp class except yong teck, so i went o the class with him. after that, while ms yap took attendance, it was discovered that one guy in my class, jian shun, was missing! it's kind of sad actually because not a single person in class likes him. he has a wierd personality but i guess he's just trying to fit in too.. aren't we all? got scolded by ms yap for leaving him behind, but honestly, no one knew that he was in the same gp class as us! after close to fifteen minutes jian shun walked into class, claiming that he: 1) got lost, 2) didn't know where to go, 3) got lost, 4) didn't know that we had left without him, 5) got lost, and 6) got lost. we were feeling pretty peeved with this chap by now.. who insists that they got lost? it's just a school! into the gate, that's e block, canteen, d block and b block, j block near to the gate, admin block smack in the middle.. ._. haha glad to say i surived gp. although i think ms yap is making it a point to pick on yong teck! aww. after that was fmaths again, and we split ourselves into groups. vanessa, yong teck, crystal, and genevia are in my group. all the tpjc first three months s2niners. we came up with a new name for ourselves, the originals. sounds like kfc chicken! haha. after that, went home for a little r&r.
wednesday. second day of actual lessons in term two. the start of the day already promised to be a long and stressful day. had gp first period. after what happened on tuesday, everyone made sure jian shun was with us. gp wasn't too bad, but ms yap's picking on yong teck! oh well. at leasthe didn't give her reason to scold him. so after gp was chinese. sadly, everyone in my class was in either 3d or 3a! and i was in 3c. walked to my class with yong teck, who was going to be next door with the rest of them. anyway, walked into the classroom to see a couple of familiar faces - andrei and louis! sat next to louis. after a while, to my suprise, chun hoe walked into the class! another familiar face! haha. my chinese teacher's rather nice. she's really cool. she's really nice to us and all.. for once, i have a feeling like i can actually learn to like chinese haha. after chinese, had chem, then fmaths, chem, and physics, which were all rather uneventful. after physics i went straight to sign up for my locker with vanessa. haha qixian came to tpjc today!! i missed her so much. had a nice talk with her before the talks, then went for band. mag had told julian that we had the project work talk and the cca talk and would be late. when i arrived, i had reached earlier than mag, and the talks had ended early. julian asked me if mag was coming up with reasons not to come for band. i almost smacked his head in, and mag said she wouldn't talk to him the whole day. miniature cold war. but it turned out all right though, that's good. dr lee says we're improving! yay! haha i can feel that a lot of people are really putting a lot of effort into the band. we all want to achieve the gold with honors! haha it's a great feeling.. to know that we all have a common goal and that we're all working towards it. after band, went home with terrence. once i got home i spent about an hour trying to decide whether i should call sujin, or just sms him. in the end, i smsed him to apologise, and he told me he wasn't angry with me at all, and that he was sorry too. phew!
thursday, killer day. lessons were to finish at 4.10!! it was sick. first we had spe, during which we had the heats for 12x100 boys, 12x100 girls, and 4x100 boys. our class was short of people, so me and crystal had to run twice. i ran the 3rd and 12th runner, and crystal ran the 1st and 10th runner. first was the 12x100 boys, so we sat down to watch. it was the first time i saw yong teck run so fast!! he's a really good sprinter. i didn't know the guys in my class were so sporty. they came in second, and i psyched the girls up. it was either beat the guys and get first in the heats, or match them and get second. we ran, and i must admit that one of the 11th runners was really very powerful.. it was in the 11th that we lost our lead and our first position. my legs felt like lead as i took the baton and ran the 12th lap, and no matter how i tried i couldn't catch up. all i could hear was the people behind me catching up. luckily, we ended up second as well. we also secured the second position for the 4x100 boys. there was no pw lesson, so we slacked in the canteen before going for physics lecture. sat with zhi long at the back because there was no more space next to vanessa, aww. after physics s29 had chem lab lesson.. we did titrations using hcl and h2so4. the teacher mrs ling asked those who didn't know how to do titrations to gather at the back of the class. thankfully i knew how to do my titrations, it's the calculations part i have problems with. anyway they were just behind me and genevia. all the three periods(mrs ling moved our last chem period up from 4.10 to 1.30) we could hear her scolding those at the back; andrew yeo, kelvin, and jian shun. and this other guy from s31, i forgot his name. towards the end of the lesson, it became quite apparent that jian shun couldn't do his titrations properly, so mrs ling, rather exasperated, asked him to take a break before trying again. and while i wrote out my calculations for the concentration of h2so4, hbehind me, jian shun started to sob! all we could do was stare. andrew yeo even joked that it was a kodak moment. we were rather helpless and decided to let mrs ling handle it. after all, none of us were close to him at all! we silently handed in out titration results and left the lab for our gp lecture on history. yuck, how boring. after gp, i wanted to go for waffles with the originals, but they were just hanging around waiting for someone else, so i left first. went home for more r&r, haha. sujin asked me to see if i could borrow a flugel horn from tkgs, but i couldn't, phooey. talked to sujin from 3.30 all the way to 10+. i'm so glad that everything's back to normal now, and that he isn't mad at me.
friday: went to school early to meet sujin and the other band members before school. i guess i could get into that habit.. haha. michelle, clement, kenneth, kiong wee and julian came too. i was quite happily doing my theory of equation homework. haha. then sujin made the mistake of letting julian get his hands on his handphone.. moments of hilarity and embarrassment ensue. michelle, you know what i'm talking about, right? haha, felt like smacking julian. i had four periods of fmaths, two tutorials and two lectures. mr chew wasn't in school so ms yeah took over the lecture. not that i minded. we have now established our jiemei group, which includes me, vanessa, crystal, genevia, yong teck, and chun hoe! haha. chun hoe suggested that we get pink polo tees from giordano, and one of those pink wristbands to go along with it, so that when the jiemei group goes out, we'll all be in pink polo tees with a pink wristband! what a sight it would be. after fmaths, we had chinese. wandered around with chun hoe because the chinese teacher didn't tell us where the lesson would be at! when we finally found the class, we found ourselves with another problem: we didn't have the writing paper for chinese compo, and we didn't have our dictionaries. how comvenient. so we used our handphones to look up the chinese words and took the writing paper from our chinese teacher. like i said, she's nice. i wrote about this taxi driver who, uh, nevermind. the more i think about it, the more stupid it sounds. haha. after that, julian told me that they were already at kfc, so i asked him to buy lunch back for me. i kept bugging grace about how hungry i was. but i really was hungry! after that, julian came back with my food, and mag and i left for the waffle shop. band was great. there's all this talk about subsidising out wasbe concert tickets, and it's just wondeful. the tickets cost $140 for all 14 concerts, including tokyo-kosei band. it's so expensive! so i'm glad that we can get subsidies. dr lee said he's going to subsidise everyone $10 off their concert tickets! and then there's the talk about the top three jcs performing for the wasbe concert! it's so exciting. i think everyone's decided that we're going to be one of the three bands performing! =) we're working so superhard for the syf.. 20+ more days! we can do it! gold with honours, here we come!! dr lee called us sars: stupid and retarded students. i must say tpjc has an acute case of sars.. 84 cases in total.. hahah.. we all know he doesn't mean it when he calls us retarded and stupid. haha. the gold is within our reach~! after band, went to get my tee and towel from the locker i share with chun hoe, then went to play soccer, oweing to the fact that the basketball was nowhere to be found. there were twelve of us, me, kiong wee, vickie, mark, christopher and yu ngai on one team, kenneth, jason, cheong hui, sujin, terrence, and one other flautist whose name i forgot, on another team. we played for one hour plus, until 8.30pm, then we waited in the canteen for jason. apparently he had gone off to meet michelle, who was supposedly still in school. kenneth, alan and the flautist had leftover co food, and the rest went off for dinner after jason came. we arranged to lan after band on saturday, and when i said i could lan too, mark asked whether i was a guy or a girl. haha! i went home with terrence, took a bath, and promptly fell asleep.
today! i met up with mag this morning for breakfast. sujin mentioned yesterday that he was going to have breakfast too, but didn't say where, and i asked terrence to come with me and mag, but he didn't want to. we went to macs at tmart. around 8.15, suvenna came, followed by sujin, clement and mazlina. mag and i left around 8.30 because i needed to get stuff from my locker - my file which i had left there the previous night. went to the band room after that. terrence was a little late, as usual. haha. julian seemed a little stoned. overall, band was okay. i can actually feel everyone's effort, and it feels great. after band, i returned julian the money i owed him, then went home to get more cash from my cupboard. met up with kiong wee, julian, kwang liang, hwaee, vickie, christopher, sujin, clement, zhimei, michelle, jason, mark, yixuan, and a few other band members for lunch. julian went to tell me they were at tampines mall when actually they were at centuary square. grr. haha. there was a rather interesting lunchtime topic, regarding what happened on friday morning. i was smsing mag and i said something in a totally sarcastic manner, but mag's going to show julian! =x oh no.. me and my big mouth! after lunch, went for lan with vickie, sujin, kiong wee, julian, clement and christopher. warcraft three: dota is no joke! within the first few minutes i was brutally murdered, limb from limb. and it takes a longer time too, because i chose the arachnid, so that's eight legs to pull. and while the others climbed to level 13 and 14, i was struggling with my level 6 arachnid. oh dear. after that, we pulled out of that game, and went to play cs. the last time i played cs was with loo kit in december? so i got killed quite quickly, and i'm not good on open maps. i prefer small, enclosed spaces where you kill who you see or get killed by who you don't see. killed christopher quite a few times.. someone set their nickname as 'gloriosa', so, in turn, i had mine set to 'singapore rhapsody'. haha. 20+ frags per round, i was at my 'top performance' today haha. the game left me with a headache though. after that, took the bus home by myself.
and now, here i am blogging.
hahah. shall post something meaningful later on, maybe.
tata.
the memories
so dear
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
7:39 PM it's not so wonderful after all*
damn it, john, it wasn't aimed at you. what're you so defensive about?
and fine lah, my spelling sucks. no point getting so damn worked up over it.
are you happy now??
oh, screw it. i've been so messed up these past few days.
i want to apologise to sujin.
i feel like i'm screwing my band life. ._.
i feel like i'm trying too hard.
i feel like i'm being overworked.
i'm exhausted. tired. overwhelmed. overloaded.
give me some room to breathe. please.
short-term goals - gold with honors for syf - understand inverse trigo and theory of equation
long-term goals - 'a' for all four a level subjects, - take two s papers - 'a' for gp - top my faculty
it may seem impossible, but you just watch me do it.
the memories
so dear
Sunday, April 03, 2005
4:36 PM o_O*
after so long, i finally know how yap chow looks like! *phew*
ahhahahahahs i miss the days when i went for tuition with yuqin and fang xian. and yuqin and i used to tease fang xian about yap chow. him being a hockey player from vs, i believe.. why didn't it occur to me to check via friendster?? *bangs head against wall* haha now i know why he was such a popular tuition talk-topic.. haha.
well, it's been two weeks since the new posting, blah blah. it's in this two weeks that i have finally seen the true side of a certain person. and it irks me.
so what if you got into *jc? i thought you were the kind to cherish friendships, but now i know i'm wrong. i have never been so wrong in my entire life. the way you just throw aside your new friends for your old ones. as in, i know like half your secondary school is there and crap, but that's no reason to just throw aside your new friends in tpjc. i bet even if i saw you on the street, you'd pretend not to know me. why? because you feel superior to me, that's why. because you feel like you're better than the rest of us. i know you worked hard and everything, and you didn't want to come into tpjc in the first place, but that's not the way you do your friends, man. what the hell. i see a total change in your charactor, and it just disgusts me. i was so freaking wrong about you. and to think. i had trusted you. not explicitly, but you had my trust. how could you have changed so much?
egoistic s.o.b.
yeah. if i see you on the street, don't wave to me. because i wish i didn't know you too. it's so freaking disappointing.
you see, this is why my civics teach's first question to us was whether we were happy in tpjc. and later, she remembered me for what i said during self intros.
ct: if you had a chance to go to, say, one of the top 5 jcs, would you go? me: i don't see the point.
and honestly, i don't. i don't freaking care. a school's a school, it's the students that make the school what it is. i don' care if i got into sr or wherever, because it doesn't mean that a student in a jc other than the top 5 isn't going to make it. because they can and they will.. just watch me.
i'll show the feaking system. all the system cares about are grades.
what am i getting so riled up about??????? >.>
i need sleep.
i've been turning into a mugger. and honestly, i don't care.
the memories
so dear
10:59 AM as promised.*
as promised yesterday, more details about yesterday, today.
how ironic it sounds!
okay, here goes.
was rudely awakened by my watch's alarm at 5.45am. i decided to ignore it and go back to sleep.. well, i was having a nice dream and wanted to go back to it. so. after that, woke at 7.30, a whole half hour before i had intended. so i just sat around, crapped a little, prepared to go out. packed some clothes and my cap even though i wasn't going to go into the water. about fifteen minutes before i left my house, it started to rain. =x oh well. when i reached downtown east(on time, i might add) the rain had stopped. sat at the bus stop for close to fifteen minutes waiting for jessie and vanessa. after that, we went a-wandering around downtown east, and spent a whole hour waiting for louis and yun hong. called so many people in a desperate attempt to find out who was actually showing up.. hui ying, yong teck, crystal, yun hong, louis, alvin, genevia, step ho, chiah hui, and hui zhen.. =x i told louis to call me when they reached downtown east, so we waited for his call.. until we got impatient and i called him again.. he said he was talking to hui zhen(who was working at wild wild wet!!) at the entrance to wild wild wet.. when i asked him how come he didn't call me, he said i didn't call him at all to tell him to call me.. so diaox. okay. nevermind. we were supposed to wait for zhi long but we decided to go in first.
rented a couple of lockers. decided to take my shoes off, and walk around barefoot carrying my camera and handphone, and some cash in case we got hungry. went to the wave pool first.. i swear, the rides have the wierdest names ever.. like tsunami, shiok river and ular-lah. took a couple of photos, here they are..
wading into the pool..
relaxing in the shallows.
after that they wanted to go to the river, so i basically followed them around on foot. the ground at wild wild wet is so rough, and the paint's peeling off.. eew! while waiting for them to tire of the river, got in a couple of shots.
just floating along.
at this time(around 12.30?) zhi long arrived.. had to shout at him to get his attention. the rest came out of the water. after stowing away zhi long's stuff, they ran off to the river again, and i followed with my camera(that thing is like surgically attached to me or something).
floating. as usual.
vanessa wanted me to get a picture of all five of them(her, jessie, yun hong, louis, and zhi long) on the float.. in the process, i was made to run around the whole course of the river three times.. the ground is not run to walk on, believe me. and then i walked into some ulu part of the park where there was absolutely no one, but it was next to the river so i walked there anyway.. it led straight to a patch of grass with stepping stones which(oww) cut your feet if you're not careful. but still, i walked on lah.. haha call me stupid or whatever. it led to the glass panel where it was quite entertaining.
re-defining the term 'sea monkey'.
he did that on purpose. *nods* i was kinda slow and didn't catch louis being a sea monkey, aww.
they went to have a few rides. the first was this ride shaped like a giant skateboarding rink.. and you just go sliding down, up, down, up.. i didn't get a picture of it because it was raining and i wasn't about to let my camera get soaked. so they queued while i watched over their float.
louis carrying the float up for the ride, followed by zhi long.
after lunch at kfc(only the girls ate) we went to look for the guys.. sure enough, they were floating down the river.. again.. after that they went for the ular-lah. being nice, i took their float for them, then proceeded to find the exit of the ride where i could wait for them(maybe) in comfort.
result: i had to stand. the seats were either taken, or wet. darn. and it took about half an hour of waiting, too. the queue was darn long. didn't manage to take a picture of that either because i couldn't see who was coming down the slides, and my camera was already starting to run out of battery. it was already three+ pm.
went to the kids' playground after that.. you know there's this one huge bucket-like thing that they fill up with water, then suddenly it just comes cascading down onto you? they wanted to go stand underneath it. caught them on cam.
anticipating the water.
down comes the water, but they're too far back to get any of it.
haha.. they looked so silly!! the water just came down and they stood there, not even under it! xD
after that, went to relax in the jaccuzzi(sp?). then they went to bathe, clean up, and get ready to go home.
it was around 4.30 when we left downtown east. i was supposed to meet peter at tampines around 6.30, so i went with yun hong and zhi long to tampines mall for their, uh, lunch+dinner. after much deliberation, cafe caretl was decided on. since i had lunch, i odered a coffee. uh, oreo frapp. the oreo was soggy but i guess that's what you get for putting it in your whipped cream. watched them eat, then peter sms-ed me saying he was at the stadium, so i told him to look for me at cafe cartel. soon after he sms-ed me again, saying that he was at centuary square delifrance and asked me to look for him because he didn't know where cafe cartel was. hahah.. well, i can't blame him. he stays in choa chu kang, after all.
don't know how, but i managed to walk straight past him. when i finally met up with him, i was kinda amazed at the little guy standing in front of me. i mean, now he's only a few cm taller than me. he used to tower over me! o_O hahah.. before i could even get in a word sideways he started suanning me about not growing. hey, i grew, okay? haha.. he asked me to show him the place and i said that there wasn't anything to show, really. we went to macs where i watched peter have his dinner. had a major headache while talking to him, must have been the coffee. oh, and his cousin is working part-time at cafe cartel! hahah. small world, i wonder which one she was.
peter saying something about just waking up.
we talked a lot, about school, band, orchestra, his work, life, love, church, and other crap. it was so fun and so great just to get to see him again, after so long. we went down to the supermarket after that, because he wanted to buy some milo for his girlfriend and her friends who were playing floorball at the tampines stadium. took a long walk to the stadium, then, because i was too lazy to run, i missed the bus. waited for the next one while peter made his way to the stadium via jaywalking. tsk, peter. hahah. felt horrible on the way home, wanted to hurl, but couldn't.
after that, i reached home around 8.10. sms-ed peter, went online and talked to ian for a bit, before catching some random chinese serial on tv. then i hit the bed.
honestly, nothing has happened today. yet. i haven't talked to anyone at all.
when will you come online? i need entertainment.
oh, ever noticed how skinny louis is? here's proof.
he's the one in front with his arms folded.
and, to finish: a picture of them capsizing! it's blurred by the mist and all, darn.
well, till next week, i guess.
the memories
so dear
Saturday, April 02, 2005
8:16 PM wild wild.. not so wet.*
just a quick one, i don't have much time hahah.
this morning, woke up early to meet my classmates at wild wild wet.. around 9.45 i reached the place, waited for about 15 minutes for vanessa and jessie, then waited for about an hour for yun hong and louis. due to some miscommunication we didn't meet them till they actually reached downtown east. oh well. spent the whole day running around barefoot with my camera because i didn't want to go into the water and they don't allow footwear in the pools. so yeah. was pretty cool, only now my feet hurt like crazy. had lunch at kfc.. haha the guys didn't want to eat so it was just me, vanessa and jessie.. by that time zhi long came too..
after they had enough of the water, i went to watch zhi long and yun hong have their dinner.. it was more ike tea since it was only five plus pm. we decided to go to cafe cartel(die, so expensive!) and uh even though it was tea-time i ordered a coffee. =x hahah.. yups. soon after peter called and i went off to meet him. the poor dear was stranded at delifrance and i had to go save him because he didn't know where cafe cartel was. =) it's been so long since i last saw peter.. september i think? so long ago. it was nice to catch up with him, since he did, after all, choose to sms me yesterday in the middle of my fmaths lecture. haha. after that i watched peter have his dinner at macs. snapped a picture of him, haha. my first picture of peter!
then we went to buy some stuff for his friends, and left for the stadium. or rather, he left for the stadium, i left for home.
ok, that was my day in brief. for more details about today(and some pictures), check back tomorrow afternoon.
for now, i'm gonna soak my feet. never has my feet hurt so much, not even after one and a half hours of basketball and soccer. oh well.
nites.
the memories
so dear
im waiting for the day.
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