l 0 v e*]] is about seeing his faults
knowing his shortcomings
and yet
you know you can't live
w i t h o u t h i m..
*three simple words
*i love you.
*i hope you feel the same way too.
-thanks for coming.
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+anything bad you wanna say, say it to my face. thanks.
you, and me.
since o8/10/o5
memoriesofyouandme=)
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
4:28 PM *sniff**
Over the past two days I have managed to make myself look like a total fool. I have risen to the highest point emotionally possible(and for me, that is very very high) only to plummet to the bottom of a pit that seems to go on forever, and slam into the rocky floor with an impact that would shatter bones. My fall was akin to any vertical line: straight down.
I must now apologise to Huifang and Vera. I was so high when we first met yesterday, yet in a matter of moments I seemed to have lost all my zest and energy. I'm sorry that you guys had to put up with it. Really, really sorry. I guess it just hit me too hard.
Have you ever felt like nothing in the world mattered, just as long as you could go back in time and change just one thing? Have you ever felt like crying, screaming, letting it all out, but just couldn't find it in you to cry? Have you ever experienced how it is like to be crushed, just like that?
Haix.
I can't believe it. And last night, I made a fool out of myself by saying something I probably shouldn't have. Perhaps it was a right decision, more likely not, but now that it has happened there's nothing I can do to take it back. I think it would be better if that person knows, anyway, but I don't want a whole replay of what happened last year, and have another experience with the whole "she-likes-me-so-I'm-going-to-avoid-her" nonsense. If what I think is going to happen, happens, then it's just my fault. I screwed it up one time for waiting too long, and then I screw it up a second time by not thinking before I sms.
Wonderful.
Haix.
I'm sorry that I'm not marvelously high anymore. I just hope I can recharge emotionally before I have to go back to school on Friday. As well as be mentally prepared for what might happen.. Not a very joyful thought. *cringes*
To my fellow slackers: let us organize a wild expidition party to wherever on Monday because we are all going to be date-less - me included, sadly.
Haix.
Oh, Nat.
the memories
so dear
im waiting for the day.
nat` ;
09101988 ;
16 ;
tpjc band tuba ;
morphobia@hotmail.com ;
cosplayer ;
for you to tell me.
#1tuba
#2bball
#3soccer
#4band
#5piano
that you love me too.
#1new wallet
#2new phone[samsung sgh-e730/e720c]
#3good grades for promos
#4lose weight
#5him[found him]
escape from reality
dec 05 - eoy @ expo - rhode from dgray man - pending
dec 05 - photoshoot - rhode from dgray man
dec 05 - videoshoot - sara(vampires anonymous)
mar 06 - photoshoot - cocowet from erementer gerad
dec 06 - eoy @ ???? - cocowet from erementer gerad