these are my memories; precious memories.

Sunday, January 09, 2005
2:00 PM
boo~!*

Whee =) I've got the subject com I want, I've signed up for the CCAs I want(except council aww), and I think school is gonna rock =) Drama, band, and math society! Whee!! Haha..

Even though the band isn't really all that great, I still signed up for it. Why? Maybe because if I didn't, I wouldn't be involved in anything that allowed me to play the tuba/make music. Because if I didn't, I wouldn't be able to play any more. NUSSO has got their Daniel, after all. I can't bear the thought of not going to be on stage again. I mean, there is drama, but that's different. In drama, everyone is a star, no matter how big or small your role may be. In band, in orchestra, in music, it's different. Everyone works together.. Harmony. *sighs*

There is no point in thinking that I can raise the quality of my section, at least, if I join, because frankly I'm not all that good either. I'm still struggling with the fingering, something I should have gotten long ago. But true love has no boundaries, so even though this is probably equivilant to suicide, I'm going ahead with it anyway. A silver-standard band? That's probably what TKGSSB will become too anyway, if the juniors don't start working hard. It's nerve-wrecking. I know that it's probably none of my business, since I've already graduated and all that crap. But I worry. Now I know how my other seniors must have felt.. Back then we sucked too. But this batch.. Sorry to say, they don't seem to be working. After my batch left, it seems that everyone's developed an AP. That's not something to be proud of, really.. On Wednesday, when I spent two hours or so with the flute section hiding from Ms Sia, it was a real eye-opener. The sec 4s weren't serious. The sec 3s talked at every possible opportunity. And the sec 2s.. Okay, so they had outing. Came back at 4+ even though it was known that they would be back around 3.30. And then disappear 'for lunch' until 5+. Might as well not come for practice, it's a bloody waste of time. Why aren't they serious by now? "Oh, because my seniors are slacking, it's okay for me to slack too." What kind of mentality is this?? SYF is only three months away at most. They aren't even up to standard, for goodness' sake. Okay, so the sec 2s won't be involved, but what kind of example are the sec 3s and 4s setting for them? That it's all right to slack during sectionals? The amount of practice done during sectionals is gonna affect how well you do during combine, and subsequently, concert/competitions. It's not all that easy.. They have to work for it! Do they really want the TKGSSB to become a silver-standard band? At the moment, hoping for gold is too much, let alone best band. I really don't want to go back and see the word "silver" carved next to "Symphonic Band" on the board of achievements. Don't any of the juniors share their seniors' anxiety?

Well.. I've never held a leadership position in the band, so I have no right to go back and pep-talk the band, as much as I want to. All I can do is contribute to my section.. Continue guiding them, helping them. But one section alone is not enough.. It's a combined effort.. When will they understand??

It's insane.. If they don't wanna work hard.. All I can say is this.. If you get a silver, don't expect me to come back and cry with you. Because if you didn't put in effort, what you get is what you deserve. That's all I can say.. It may sound a little cruel, but I don't wish it to be this way too.. For the sake of TKGSSB and all it stands for.. Work hard please!! SYF is coming!

..........Who am I expecting to read this anyway.

the memories
so dear