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knowing his shortcomings
and yet
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w i t h o u t h i m..
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Wednesday, December 01, 2004
9:01 AM bbq*
Yesterday was actually fun. In the morning I didn't want to go.. But I still went in the end, so. *shrugs* We were all under the impression that it was a section thing, until Arli told us it was more of a social gathering/get together thing. >_<; But it was still fun.
We walked all the way from Parkway =\ long walk. Mag and Fang were lagging behind =) Hahah.. Yupx. Ran into Halijah and her boyfriend along the way.. Hehee.
We slacked a lot at the chalet before actually starting the fire, wich resulted in a Very Late Fire. Juni and I were working on it until Kenneth and his 'crew' decided to take it from there. Hey, I'm not complaining, they got the fire going =) And and and there was this cute little electric grill thing. Jeanne claimed it as her own.. =) So she cooked and me and Arli and Maria just ate. Hey, sounds familiar.. -flashes back to class at Seoul Garden >_<;- Fang was so engrossed in the television that Mag had to feed her. o_O And we had music! I*heart*clayaiken.
After that, around 9, me, Jeanne and Maria went to the beach.. I ran.. Maybe because I was wishing I could run away from my problems, or maybe because I hoped someone would be at the end of my run, waiting for me.. I don't know.. Either way, I was disappointed. We sat on the rocks and just listened to the waves, talked a bit.. Then Marcus called me, said I should be doing something about it, but what he suggested.. Just isn't me. Felt like crying right there.. And as I looked up at the sky, I couldn't help but wonder: where are all the stars tonight? I mean.. There were no stars in the sky at all. Marcus said that my bright star was shining somewhere, but I couldn't see it.. Whether it's a person, or something, I couldn't see it. All I saw was this stark darkness in front of me.. Not even a pinprick of light pierced the dark. Then, even though I was still with Maria and Jeanne, I felt so alone. I felt so, so alone.
We raced back to the chalet. Running along the beach at night can be refreshing, that's if you don't trip over anything(or anyone O_o). Arli's friend Hidayat came, and proclained the space between to trees as his own. =\ There's a nice chalet over there and he insists on sleeping on a hammock. Wierd people -_-; After that we all left in one group. Juni walked me to the lobby. And I have candy canes from Jeanne! =) Candy's enough to make my day. I think. Hahah.. =)
Yup.. That's it.. Had fun, even though I didn't know half the people there.. There's this certain thrill about sitting around a barbeque pit/grill with people you have yet to meet. We should do that more often. Haha..
Some people ask, have you ever sat and stared at a sky full of stars? I ask, have you ever sat and stared at the lack of stars in the sky? I know, it doesn't mean that the stars aren't there, but it'd be comforting if one or two of them showed themselves =\ Must be all those city lights. Ohwell..
the memories
so dear
im waiting for the day.
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#2bball
#3soccer
#4band
#5piano
that you love me too.
#1new wallet
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escape from reality
dec 05 - eoy @ expo - rhode from dgray man - pending
dec 05 - photoshoot - rhode from dgray man
dec 05 - videoshoot - sara(vampires anonymous)
mar 06 - photoshoot - cocowet from erementer gerad
dec 06 - eoy @ ???? - cocowet from erementer gerad